today

Today's exam drained me so much.

The past few days have as well, and all the assignments piling up will too.

I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT 4U TUTOR HOMEWORK.FHAKJHFAKLFHAKFHAK.

Okay bye :(

PRODUCTIVITY LEVELS AT ITS PEAK

So I did my work today. Solely dedicated to maths. I did the first exercise from my Fitzpatrick textbook, finished a part of the Cambridge exercise (hell yeah) and I finished off Resisted Motion from the tutor sheet. I'm still stuck on the last part though.

I've never felt so... motivated? Okay, maybe I have, but I'm talking about how motivated I feel this year. I know it's a little late to be saying "hey, it's time to be pulling yourself together", because really, I only have 2 terms left before I sit the exams that probably determine my Asian life.

I need to sit down and reorganise everything.

Okay, since I had a productive afternoon... ish? I'll go online and talk to Donovan LMFAO :D

Funny how when I talk about work on my blog, it always has the "maths" label HAHAHAHA

avicii - levels (in reverse) - george monev edit

fhakfhla. I loveeee this track so much.

And I promised I would never sleep late again. Look what happened HAHA. I have two blisters, and I can't walk without one scraping the floor. I can't seem to do tutor homework for some reason. I need to actually do UMAT practice. I've been putting it off for so long, it's ridiculous. And I need to look over my notes for Physics, and start studying Business Studies and start revising for English. FHKJADHFAJSKFHSJHFKASA.

ENGLISH.

And maths. Gargh, who the hell puts projectile in an exam when we still haven't properly learnt it?! Oh wait, yeah, that's right, it's assumed that we have learnt it because our teacher is the head teacher. I'm so tired, seriously. Though, I did have 7.5 hours of sleep! Improvement, I suppose?

I'm  really, really lazy to go tutor right now. As much as I love the environment and what we do there, I really can't be bothered today, and I really hope he doesn't chuck a double lesson over us. *cries*. I must cram applications of calculus in... today. Or tomorrow. Most likely today, because I'm motivated to do work on Saturday.

I feel happy :)

papers

FHKWAFHSAKLHFSALKFA THESE PAST PAPERS FROM TUTOR ARE KILLING ME SO BADLY. I CANT EVEN GET PAST QUESTION 2 WITHOUT WASTING A COLUMN IN MY BOOK. HFKADHFAKLDHFADKLFHAKFHDAK.

I'm going to go and finish off what remains now. I need to power through all of this by tomorrow night! If not... I'll go and dedicate my time to this tomorrow and finish my anti-climatic story for Belonging tonight. Seriously, FML.

I also have a Physics topic test next Thursday (we're to assume it's on Thursday). My half yearly mark is currently on the line.

FHDAUKJFHAKFHAKS BUSINESS. ENGLISH. MATHS. PHYSICS. WHY ARE MY FOUR SUBJECTS SO DRAINING D:

JUST 13 QUESTIONS LEFT

Before I finish tutor homework. I'm so tired, it's ridiculous. I don't plan to sleep at 12 again tonight...

I went to my dermatologist and he prescribed like, three different drugs. Let's just say, I'll be loading up on water before my skin dehydrates and shrivel up. I kid, but really, dehydration will happen. I hope we don't have a topic test tomorrow. I hope I have enough time to do my English speech. I hope for so many things and I just delaying what I have right now. I really really want to start the Great Gatsby tomorrow. I prefer studying novels over everything. Seriously.

Okay, bye. I'm so out of itttt.

bookshops

I bought a box set of a book series, 3 textbooks and Hungry Jacks. My careers adviser was nice, and has probably made me realise that yes, it is possible, with effort.

Today was a good day. And I'll finish maths homework now. Okay bye :)

out of my league

I feel like I can never stop studying maths. You're probably going to roll your eyes and laugh and tell me that of course, because I'm dedicated to the subject, but that's not the case this time! I actually don't know if I'm studying enough or not D: I remember last year, when I did my second assessment task, I sat back after a study session and claimed that I was ready and I had prepared enough. I just feel like I have prepared nothing for the 10% maths exam, and it's something that counts. I haven't even touched the Polynomial questions either, because I had trouble with them.

I feel like I'm at a loss with everything, ever since I came back to school. ARGH, I HOPE BUSINESS DIES A PAINFUL DEATH NOW, AND THAT PHYSICS WILL BE LESS ABSTRACT. And that English wouldn't be so repetitive. And that the Maths tutorial would be in the afternoon. Okay, I shall be off now. I will now go and immerse myself in the heavy readings about the aether and revise my practicals. Again.

I really like our new topic for Physics. It's a manly topic from what I've heard LOL. Nevertheless, I think learning about it today made me feel like I can actually do something and understand it. And work it out.

Okay bye :)

murderer

I killed 2 bugs today. One on Lamrock's shoulder with my wallet and one on my wall just then. I have yet to kill another fly. I HAVE PASSED THE HALF WAY MARK FOR THE COMPLEX NUMBERS QUESTIONS! Ridiculous, I feel like I've wasted so much time LOL. It's already 7:53PM... I will go off and do a bit of reading for Physics before immersing myself in Preliminary Business Studies. Ugh, business.

Okay bye :)

complaints

I have officially finished the first page of the Complex Numbers booklet. Some of the questions didn't provide the answers I expected? I mean, like when it says it's a conjugate, like W = A - i, they used W = A + i. I would sit there for five minutes trying to come to terms with what it should be. So yeah, 27/85 questions! Seriously, I better do well for the exam or I will feel eternally miffed when I do maths. So I have tutor tonight - sir changed the duration again, so it's only going to be 1.5 hours of 3u instead of 3 hours of 3u and 4u.

Is it normal to feel strangely disinclined to go to school? I mean, I go for the people and probably the free periods, but really, I'd rather spend my time at home. Literally at home. That's why I haven't been going out before Steph's birthday HAHA. I don't have the heart to take out my Infinite badge from its small plastic cover yet. Oh yeah, yesterday this guy in my class asked sir a question, and it was pretty funny. I'll tell you in person, because it's going to sound too crude over the internet HFJAKHFLA.

I really, really pray that we don't have English first thing in the morning tomorrow. Annie, if you're reading this, can you please send the comprehension questions for Business please? I didn't get any email :S (the activity ones). And I finished Act 5, but I left out 2 questions. But those 2 questions had 2 parts each, and I did one part in each already, so it would mathematically equate to 1 question.

Oh yeah - Othilia, do you still want to share a locker this year? We have to put the deposit in soon HAHA :) Same place? Is ours number 43? I actually don't remember the number anymore... HAHA.

Okay, I'll be off now. Much preparation is needed for the upcoming exams - I have 3 lined up in the first 2 weeks, and I can't afford to stuff any of them up. I will read over Physics a bit and then print out some Polynomial questions. Actually, I'll do the polynomials ones first. Or the other. I don't know anymore.

OKAY BYE.

fudge

fhakjfhakha. So I just talked to Lamrock and Steph, and Lamrock has just informed me that the Physics topic test is first day back. I... am utterly speechless. ARGH, PREP TIME CUT SHORT FUFLKADHFKLAHFA.

coddled

Just because I'm picky with my fruits does not mean I don't eat it. The only two fruits I despise would be bananas and jackfruit, but I'm fine with anything. Why am I talking about this? Because last night, before I went to bed, my cousin and mum decided to gang up on me and say that I don't eat enough fruits and I've been too spoilt. Well sorry for not going through the general hardships that you've gone through. Then my mum had the audacity to ask me this morning: are you mad about last night when we teased you? Well, no, of course not. I'm just hurt and humiliated and fucking speechless.

And I bought the UMAT package yesterday. I've started reading the guides, and becoming more and more motivated for it... I think. I really want my laptop back. I want to actually start doing stuff. I'm past half way of the Electricity topic for Physics and it's becoming more and more clear. Friday's going to rain girls! So excited :D I have tutor tonight, and I left out 3 questions. Ridiculous.

And the reason why I asked my um to stand behind me whilst I pay for my UMAT package was because I'm handling a lot of money. Money that I myself don't make. So if anything happens, we know that we haven't done anything wrong and that I was not the one to blame. Because when my sister does something wrong, I'm the one to blame. If my dad does something wrong, he blames me. If my mum does something wrong, she blames me. I'm like some kind of fucking escape goat. So don't, for one second, think that I've been too sheltered or too afraid of the fucking world because really, I don't make the money that my parents make.

And this week, Skip Beat is taking so long to get hardsubbed. I really don't like changing the format of my episodes... so I'll just have to wait for Episode 5 and pray that they don't drop the project.

poseidon

Love for Si Won in all dramas has gotten to a new high. fhakdfhjkadh. I don't want to put any obsessive terms on this blog, but just to be fair: wow. Especially in the police uniform. LAMROCK, AND YUNHO IS IN IT TOO LOL! I was staring at him and asking myself 'where have I seen him before...?' and then I went on drama wiki or whatever it's called and realised that he was from your number 1 band!

So... yeah. I have done nothing yesterday. Literally nothing. I just downloaded, watched and drooled over Poseidon. The girl plays hard-to-get at first, a bit cliche, and slightly bothersome, but she's alright nonetheless. I shall start on writing my conics notes and start actually revising for Physics. Correction: Preliminary Physics. Basics first, then the complex stuff.

Okay, I shall be off now. Today's the day where I purchase, for the first time in half a year, stuff online. That means I have to go to the bank to deposit money with my mum. Lazy times ten :( But in any case, the first thing I'll buy is the package, because the holds the key to my eternal happiness.

That sounded so sad, considering my eternal happiness can only be obtained through academic means.

Okay, bye :D

TUTOR HOMEWORK IS TAKING TOO LONG. I think I'll start a new book for 4u tomorrow...

curse thee

I cannot fathom the amount of horrible emotions and thoughts I have kept to myself for the past few days. I haven't had a good night's sleep in 6 days, I feel that my source of nightly comfort (that is, my cone shaped light) has been taken away for a younger, more fearless person without my consent. Of course, this came with the excuse that I was the older sibling and it was my duty to give whatever my sister wants/needs without going against the idea.

Pathetic domestic stereotype, really. I've been loading up on Naruto fanfiction when suffering this extremely long bout of insomnia - I have established that my 'one true pairing', otherwise known as OTP, is ItaSaku. Not that you need to know the completely bookish tendencies I have LOL. In any case, I've been quite irritable lately because of my current circumstance - my hotmail is blocked, as you are aware from my previous post, and now, my computer has totally gone into completely blue, flashy chaos. So adios Dell Inspiron. You were loved.

I'm currently using my dad's old Toshiba laptop as a getaway from my laptop's failure. I have so many questions left to finish for tutor and I honestly am not in the appropriate state of mind to finish. I left out 1.5 questions in Level 1 and so, SO MANY MORE in Level 2. And I'm unsure about the SHM questions at the back. Can someone please confirm that we don't have any 4 unit homework. Please? *stares at Juliana* HAHA

In any case, I should be getting back to... reading my fanfiction, then doing some more tutor homework, then reading the Great Gatsby. THE WOES OF A STUDENT, I SHALL SAY ONCE MORE! And Othilia, I shall be awaiting your call!

No. NO. NOFHAJDKFHAKLFHA.

So I was looking at stainless steel whiteboard. It's not a whiteboard, but it has its functions LOL. And I realised I wrote in very small smudged writing "tutor on 20/01/2012". And I checked my calendar, thinking I have ages left.

It's next week on Friday.

Oh shit, that means I need to get tutor homework done. OH NOOOOOOO.

space

I finished my dot points for Core Topic 1: Space. I cannot comprehend the amount of relief I feel right now.

ONE TASK DOWN, AN INFINITE AMOUNT LEFT TO GO!

paprika

I think it's pretty obvious that I forgot to mention that I didn't end up going to Jenolan Caves as planned. My immense fear for staying in a car for over an hour kind of got to me. Yeah, it's true, I suffer from pounding headaches when I go on long road trips. Instead, we went to Rockdale to watch planes fly in and out. It was so pretty at night hfjkahla :D

But yeah. I finished Paprika. It was... surreal. I suppose the novel was alright, and the plot was memorable, but there were some elements in the novel that I wasn't comfortable with/that were sprung on me. I think it was an alright novel though, as I've said before. Now, I'll do some Graphs and start The Great Gatsby after I finish my Physics dot points. PRODUCTIVITY IS AT ITS PEAK NOW!

shakespeare

Finally, after long, laborious hours of reading 'thee's and 'thou's, I have finished the play. It was, at various points, quite funny. But then again, we should all consider the fact that I read with an English accent in my head and over-dramatise everything. But even so, I found it quite enjoyable :)

NOW THAT THAT'S OUT OF THE WAY, I CAN PEACEFULLY READ PAPRIKA AND DO OTHER STUFF. Achievement + 1. I think I have too many notes for Physics... And I'm considering going back to Twitter, but I'm too lazy to make another one and get distracted. Again. Also, Pottermore has been in Beta for quite a while now. I'm not here to complain, but... I'm getting a bit antsy because I felt a twinge of regret for not signing up earlier this year due to exams. Yes, exams over Pottermore - SO SAD.

I feel so, so lazy when I look at my pile of maths homework. It's not even a pile. It's a self-inflicted amount of practice in order to achieve the highest possible marks this term, and the next, and the next. Well, that's what I keep telling myself. Today, I realised how much I need to exercise and my dire need to go shopping for decent singlets/tops. Not so much spaghetti strapped singlets, but ones that look... decent? I'm not too sure as to how I'm meant to say it HAHA.

I've also been noticing a great amount of fat accumulating at my thighs. I'm not fat, just to set the record, but it would be nice to have lighter, more athletic legs. I have bad stretch marks too, so hopefully Bio-Oil will suffice. Hopefully. So... yeah, that's about it. I'll get back to reading now. Goodbye! :D

hazelnuts

I didn't really know what I wanted for a title HAHA.

Anyway, update on my life so far:

• Played House of 1000 Doors: Family Secrets
• Nightmare Mysteries: Asylum Conspiracy
• Finished 5.11 of Trigonometric functions chapter (Test Yourself and Challenge exercise left)
• Still up to 'aether' section of Physics (...)
• I've not been out since Christmas Eve
• I stopped straightening my hair for what seems to be 2 weeks up until now
• I've read Act 1 for As You Like It (I will never read this aloud. To my mom. Who laughs at my poor pronunciation of Shakespearean terms)
• I had a nightmare last night that I was in one of the mystery games I was playing, unable to press 'exit' because I didn't solve the puzzle yet. I hate being trapped LOL And then I woke up and I felt terrified that something might be pulling on my leg. *shivers* Blame it on previous terror/horror films.
• I went back to Naruto fanfiction (SasuSaku or ItaSaku - more the first one, because it's more likely to be canon) because I needed something that wasn't as scary as those games

That is pretty much it. I haven't gotten my textbooks yet, but I'll do so soon. I think I might register for the UMAT practice materials next week...

I'll see how it goes. Goodbye for now!

i need to

I need to step up to the academic plate. Seriously. I want to finish high school feeling like this:

Yes, I did take it from Google Images. It's the third from the left in the first row. Credits to the uploader.

I finished an entire trig. sketching exercise today. I could have completed more, but I was playing games whilst doing so. Now that I've snapped out of it, I'M READY. SIX WEEKS IS NOT LONG. I vowed to start driving this holidays (doubt I'll get to it since it's at the bottom of my list), and hopefully I'll do so.

I'm really looking forward to seeing my lovely best friends, because it's almost been 3 days. 'TIS TOO LONG. <3

How has everyone been?

I NEED TO GO TEXTBOOK SHOPPING. FUN FUN FUN :D

Okay, I'll be off now. I need to slave away on holiday homework and let my eyes breathe.

Yes, because contact lenses don't allow your eyes to be exposed to air.

GOODBYE! :D

partying, partying, YEAH!

SIR CANCELLED HALF (YES HALF) OUR TUTOR LESSON. SO NO 4U TUTOR TODAY. FHAKSFHADJKFHALJKFHAL. Life is so good at the moment. So, so good. Favourite tutor teacher :') It's weird how I jump for joy when he cancels our lesson, and he becomes my favourite teacher LOL. Anyway, back to the point. I am recovering from an intense fever/food poisoning (I believe) and am now finishing my 3u homework. I am exhausted, but nevertheless happy. XUAN'S COMING OVER IN 2.5 HOURS!

I need to continue with business and study hard. MUST DO WELL FOR HSC AND UMAT. MUST MUST MUST.

Oh, and Sir can play tennis again tomorrow LOL