and this is why

And this is why I never ask for anything LOL.

I feel so horrible for saying this, but when it comes to exercise and healthy eating, mum always assumes that she knows best and knows all.

Really, it's actually just yoga this and yoga that.

And then she goes to the extent to prove her point, and cuts everyone along the way lol.

lost

You have virtually lost all of my trust. All of it.

Never fuck with my family. You turned us against each other for the weekend, and I'm not even sure if I want to know you any more.

LOL I hope you have a good life, because I can't be fucked dealing with two-faces like you.

You've been exploited, bitch.

debase

I hate being the older sister.

I will fucking slap the next person who says it's normal to fucking say that.

no words

My sister was apparently 'hurt' when I told her to leave me in peace so I could study. I literally said "I need you to stay in your room because I need to study" because she kept complaining about not wanting to go to the barbecue with my parents. Then my mum yelled at me and said that I hurt her feelings.

What's funny was the fact that my mum immediately sided with my sister when I tried explaining. Ugh, I really cannot be bothered anymore.

In all honesty I couldn't find anything for my sister. And she told my mum that I didn't buy anything for her because I don't love her. Then my mum yelled at my for not loving my sister.

I don't even want to show them anything I buy anymore.

This was posted in another blog post because I didn't want to tarnish Stephanie's birthday post :D

coddled

Just because I'm picky with my fruits does not mean I don't eat it. The only two fruits I despise would be bananas and jackfruit, but I'm fine with anything. Why am I talking about this? Because last night, before I went to bed, my cousin and mum decided to gang up on me and say that I don't eat enough fruits and I've been too spoilt. Well sorry for not going through the general hardships that you've gone through. Then my mum had the audacity to ask me this morning: are you mad about last night when we teased you? Well, no, of course not. I'm just hurt and humiliated and fucking speechless.

And I bought the UMAT package yesterday. I've started reading the guides, and becoming more and more motivated for it... I think. I really want my laptop back. I want to actually start doing stuff. I'm past half way of the Electricity topic for Physics and it's becoming more and more clear. Friday's going to rain girls! So excited :D I have tutor tonight, and I left out 3 questions. Ridiculous.

And the reason why I asked my um to stand behind me whilst I pay for my UMAT package was because I'm handling a lot of money. Money that I myself don't make. So if anything happens, we know that we haven't done anything wrong and that I was not the one to blame. Because when my sister does something wrong, I'm the one to blame. If my dad does something wrong, he blames me. If my mum does something wrong, she blames me. I'm like some kind of fucking escape goat. So don't, for one second, think that I've been too sheltered or too afraid of the fucking world because really, I don't make the money that my parents make.

And this week, Skip Beat is taking so long to get hardsubbed. I really don't like changing the format of my episodes... so I'll just have to wait for Episode 5 and pray that they don't drop the project.

new years

Thank you so, so much for the New Years text messages, despite the fact that I don't even have credit to reply! :D

I love you all as well, and I'm glad we have each other. I don't really know what to say, because you guys have stated everything in your text messages. But one thing's for sure: "Thank you for everything, and for making me the person I am today."

On a side note, I have finshed Queen of Death. It wasn't as scary as I thought it would have been... HAHA Okay bye :) I'm going to finish reading As You Like It and finish my Physics notes. I'M GOING JENOLAN CAVES TOMORROW. I'm actually looking forward to it, but then the car trip... I can't actually sit on a car for over 1 hour, because then I'll have a pounding headache and die from dizziness.

SO UNTIL THEN, MY LOYAL BLOG READERS!

hazelnuts

I didn't really know what I wanted for a title HAHA.

Anyway, update on my life so far:

• Played House of 1000 Doors: Family Secrets
• Nightmare Mysteries: Asylum Conspiracy
• Finished 5.11 of Trigonometric functions chapter (Test Yourself and Challenge exercise left)
• Still up to 'aether' section of Physics (...)
• I've not been out since Christmas Eve
• I stopped straightening my hair for what seems to be 2 weeks up until now
• I've read Act 1 for As You Like It (I will never read this aloud. To my mom. Who laughs at my poor pronunciation of Shakespearean terms)
• I had a nightmare last night that I was in one of the mystery games I was playing, unable to press 'exit' because I didn't solve the puzzle yet. I hate being trapped LOL And then I woke up and I felt terrified that something might be pulling on my leg. *shivers* Blame it on previous terror/horror films.
• I went back to Naruto fanfiction (SasuSaku or ItaSaku - more the first one, because it's more likely to be canon) because I needed something that wasn't as scary as those games

That is pretty much it. I haven't gotten my textbooks yet, but I'll do so soon. I think I might register for the UMAT practice materials next week...

I'll see how it goes. Goodbye for now!

christmas lights

So yesterday, after dinner, I went with my aunty and sister to Chipping Norton to see Christmas lights. Let me just say, I think this will be a feastive tradition from here on. I have never been so amazed with how far people would go for Christmas! It's so WOW, in a good way. One house (I'll count it as one, but really they're two separate houses joined by Christmas lights) had an extremely flashy exterior. However, a little sign in their lawn told us to tune into a specific FM channel. We did so, and oh my gosh. fhajkhfdalkjfhak. THE LIGHTS WERE LITERALLY FLASHING TO THE BEAT OF THE MUSIC. WOW. LIKE, WOW.

And just so you know, the area we went to was close to where our Geography excursion in year 9/10 was.

Even though electricity bills are high, CHRISTMAS PREVAILS!

I will be decorating my house next year. Oh yeah, and as I was driving home yesterday (not me, my aunty LOL), I realised that only one house had Christmas lights on our street. Wow HAHAHFJKHSAKL!

And I'm going to Parramatta with my cousin in 20 minutes to shop for presents (so late). He has a work meeting at 2PM though, so I think we'll have to leave early.

I have not done anything productive this week but stretch the time to do my Physics notes. SECTION 4 OF SPACE, YES!

Okay bye :D