i rehearsed this moment so many times in my head

PRODUCTIVITY AT ITS HIGHEST. Nah, I'm joking, but I am being productive to an extent. I just got distracted by the smell of my lip balm, it smells so nice HAHA

I will now continue with my projectile motion questions that I left for... 2 days now? And then start on my Conics notes and then actually go and make some Royal Umbrella noodles. I really like these noodles, because they remind me of camp and how us girls would sit in our cabins and eat them, and just talk in general. I love my girls. Always. <3

Anyway, yeah, I gotta get on with work!

FREEDOM

FHJDSKABASKFBNSAKFSADNFDA I'M FREEEEEEEEEEEE!

Well, not really. I have a Physics topic test coming up on Monday, but meh, my half yearlies are done and out of the way. Thoughts?

• English - Alright
• Business - Alright
• 2u - Stupid trapezium question
• 3u - Stupid subbing question... did it wrong bloody. IT WAS 10 + 5 HFKAJDHFDAKLFHAKA. I did 10 minus 5 :( Goodbye one/two marks LOL
• 4u - It was so hard.

And yes. That was it.

Okay I'm going to go out and eat with my parents and favourite aunty later! :D And then come back home to fully relax and chat to my girls via Whatsapp and talk to Dono :) And perhaps in the meantime, do some Physics study.

this love's like a rodeo

Physics tutorials tomorrow morning, so I'm going to sleep early. If you call 10:45PM early. I had tutor a few hours ago, and I can finally say that year 12 is beginning to hit me. The workload is manageable, but sometimes it spins out of control. I need to cut my fingernails. I couldn't play the piano today, and it was a bit frustrating HAHA. I would like to give a big thank you to Steph N for sending me that pdf file! :D <3 I'll be sure to send it to Theresa ASAP.

Your post. fhdfakjflhakfjah.

Girls, I love you, but my phone was getting spammed during tutor, despite having no credit. I'm still getting your messages, but I can't send mine? Yeah D: I love you girls (L) :3

I've finished a section for Business! Now for processes of financial management and I'll be done. And then I'll move onto strategies.

I'M SOOOOO TIRED.

UNDERSTANDING

I UNDERSTAND NOW TANYA. I UNDERSTAND NOW! HAHAHA <3

long day

I came home after an 8 hour school day. I am so tired, and I turned on some music to get into study mode. And it happened to be B2ST. And then, inside, I died a little because of drifting from Yo Seob. Their music was so good... and it still is! I think I just overplayed it and then got use to all their songs.

Yo Seob, I will never leave you again :( I LOVE YOU, HGFKAGHDKAHFKA.

And my exam is tomorrow. I am nowhere near prepared. After tomorrow's exam, I'm going to go and eat with my mum, come home and write notes, and sleep to my heart's content because exams are when I get the antsiest.

PLEASE, LORD, HELP ME DO WELL TOMORROW. IT'S 10% OF MY INTERNAL MARK. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. I'm using my dad's laptop, if you're wondering why I'm online LOL.

Okay now, bye! I have another 15 minutes of free time before I go and immerse myself in polynomials and complex numbers. I'm so sick of these topics, seriously. I need new ones in my life now.

And today we were talking about horoscopes. Let me just say, that the most 'sensitive' spot, determined by the zodiac website Steph used, ones for two of my lovelies, was quite funny and will never be mentioned in a mindless conversation. Unless it needs to be brought up between my friends for the sake of laughing. Which is all the time. I love my best friends.

"there was a special link that no mathematical calculations could have derived"

I'm texting my two girls right now, and yes Tanya, I can imagine it. I might die from over-exposure to adorableness. fhajdkfhakjlfs. :D I love my girlies! Steph, heavy breathing. HAHAHAFJHSDLJFKDAH. *DIES*

I'm kind of panicking now. I have a math exam on Thursday and I don't feel prepared. And I stuffed up my Physics test. Why did I have a random brain fart and began talking about the Doppler Effect. It didn't even fit. GOODBYE 80%+ SCORE. DAMMIT.

stephanie

I love you. Happy birthday girly! :D <3 I have known you since 2002, and I admit, we have had some rocky times, but I am so, so proud that we have gotten over those moments. I'm so happy that we're friends, and that we both belong to a group that sticks together no matter what. Here's where I list out what I love about you, but there's too much to list out, so I'll just say: "I love every bit about you" :) You're one of my best friends, and I can honestly say that I hold you and the other girls closest to my heart. You've been alive for 17 years, and don't ever, for one moment, think that you are not needed - don't even imagine us without you.

Happy birthday dear, I love you and I know you will do great things. Great things. *MANY HEARTS AND HUGS*

Today was the best. Honestly, we went out as a group, had the greatest fun, and someone please send me those photos of us. Tanya and I ran up and down the karaoke bar stairs and that totally killed our legs. But it was all worth it :D I hope you love your presents Steph! <3

And I found out Sally had the wrong number the whole time. She's been texting the wrong number the whole time. And I laughed HAHAHAHA

Quotes of the day:

Lamrock: It's name should be Cherry!
Panda: Cherry? That's my friend's/cousin's friend's/cousin's dog's name. And I hate it.

Lamrock: My hair is black. Why is your hair the same colour as your clothes?

FHKJADHFDKASLHFALSKFA. It was one of those "in that moment" kind of things.

I came home with blistered feet. No matter - it was much worse last time. I'm going to quickly cram Preliminary Physics before starting HSC Core Topic 1.

This day was too short.

OH YEAH, AND I BOUGHT AN INFINITE (THE KOREAN BAND) BADGE. Myung Soo, I love you. Especially when you have that half smile/smirk in your music videos. I keep replaying those.

groggy

So... Tutor was at 11AM this morning. I woke up 20 minutes or so before the actual start of tutor. I thought I was late, until I came into the waiting room that was filled with only 3 people HAHA So yeah, we chatted and then right on the dot, at 11, my entire class came. It goes to show how lazy we are.

In all honesty, I didn't sleep well last night. It was hot and cold, and even though I slept until 10:40AM, I was still so, so tired. Throughout tutor, I was trying not to let my stomach grumble because I didn't eat breakfast (for the first time ever - I think) and when I got home, I was too mentally exhausted to go and microwave some food, so I slept from around 1:30 until just half an hour ago. And now I'm eating. What would you call the mix between 'dinner' and 'lunch'? Luncher? Probably. So yeah, I am eating 'luncher' now.

I am so sosososososo excited for tomorrow! :D I MISS MY GIRLIES SO MUCH! And it's someone's special day tomorrow as well! ;D I actually haven't seen them all (as a group) since... forever ago :( I don't know what to wear for tomorrow, considering the weather's a bit here and there lately. So yes, that is all! :D I will be on again... tomorrow. I think. Right after I get home from the fun.

JULIANA, IF YOU SEE THIS, TEXT ME WHEN YOUR SCHEDULE ALLOWS YOU AT LEAST 30 MINUTES ON MSN SO WE CAN LOOK FOR THE POLYNOMIALS QUESTIONS. PLEASE. I BEG YOU. You are so busy, seriously HAHAHA

fudge

fhakjfhakha. So I just talked to Lamrock and Steph, and Lamrock has just informed me that the Physics topic test is first day back. I... am utterly speechless. ARGH, PREP TIME CUT SHORT FUFLKADHFKLAHFA.

poseidon... again

SPOILER ALERT - DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE GOING TO WATCH THE DRAMA

That is, unless you're really curious and you want to know what happens. But it's okay, you'll only get a very slight gist what happens.

Words cannot express my dislike for the main girl. When Si Won tells you to stay in the car, you stay in the car. Then, you call the 9th Division for back up and to hurry the hell up with that warrant. You do not sit there and complain to him about how it's not right and that he should wait, because seriously, his sunbae is injured from getting beaten up and you are stalling him.

THEN YOU GO AND EAVESDROP ON HIS CONVERSATION WITH THE OTHER MEMBERS, IN ORDER TO NOT BE 'LEFT OUT'. There's a reason why he didn't tell you (because he loves you, okay? Okay.), and there's a reason why Captain Kwon didn't either. I'm so freakin' pissed (WHITE CHICKS!). Oh my gosh, and she cries almost after each exploitation of drugs/people smuggling. And she cries when they stumble upon a dead body (that probably hasn't even gotten to undergo rigor mortis yet). Every. Single. Time.

I am trying so hard not to cringe every time I see her, and I'm trying to fast forward her parts in order to find out who the hell this elusive Choi Hee Gon is (or those who are Choi Hee Gon - Chang Gil totally confused me). No drama has ever gotten me this angry at the female lead before. Ever. Except for Cinderella's Sister, because the spoilt girl was just too much for me to handle. But she wasn't the main girl, so... I think it doesn't count.

And the Captain of the SSAT. Whose. Side. Are. You. ON?! I thought you were good. Then I realised you were bad. And then you turned out to be good. Then you made me suspect that you were bad. Make up your mind, please.

And the female lead's aunt. The flashy one. She reminds me of my own gossipy aunt. And as well as this, she blurts out so many crass things that disadvantage the main girl's mother. And then Captain Kwon. YOU ARE NOT TO HIT YOUR SUBORDINATES/TEAM MEMBERS. I KNOW THEY MAY ACT IMPULSIVELY, BUT YOU DID TOO. AT THE BEGINNING OF THE FILM. AND YOU HIT YOUR BAD GUY AS WELL, WHILST INTERROGATING. You're a good guy, but your actions may be misinterpreted by some people. People like me.

Okay. That is all. I'm so sorry that I've left you feeling like you shouldn't be watching this (or if you should, go forth and do so!). I will be off now. And tutor was cancelled today... and I have yet to make up 4 hours of 4u on Wednesday... FHAKDJFHAJLFKAH.

Okay that is all. BYE! :D I will see my lovelies in exactly 1 week. YESSSSSS.

watching you stand alone

I still feel so restless... Am I really cut out to do what I want to? People say that when you want something really, really bad, you tend to go all out and somehow, get there. I feel that no matter what I'm doing right now, I can't do anything right and I'm running out of time fast. *inserts profane passage filled with curses directed to year 12*

I miss my bestiessssssss so much. So, so much. I honestly don't mind where we're going, as long as it's together and it's fun :D But then being together is fun already. I also miss my cousin. I called him a few nights ago and he said he might come over (yes).

I actually don't have much to say.

Good day to you all :)

blocked again

My hotmail is blocked. Again. WHY IS THIS HAPPENING. I CANT EVEN SEND A NORMAL EMAIL TO MY BEST FRIENDS. So yeah... girls, I can't send you emails/receive them right now.

insomniac

I'm scared of the dark.

I seriously am. I miss camp, because those days were the days I can actually sleep in peace without fearing anything, because my friends would be there. I think I'm afraid because of what might suddenly pop up or what might pull my leg. LOL, thank Paranormal Activity. In any case, I don't think I'll be sleeping until 3 in the morning today, or perhaps until I finish some work.

I really need to set myself up for the year ahead, and this insomnia has got to stop. I hate not being able to sleep. I tried sleeping at 10PM because I normally do, and my sleep was so fragmented. Anyway, I'm going to continue reading The Great Gatsby and then I'll do some... work on my Physics practicals or I'll sort out my stuff. The joys of having your own room. Yet, the fears associated with having your own room as well. Why can't it be sunny all the time? :( The word 'sunny' reminds me of camp. And this then leads onto my toenails. Long story short - I got knocked out when my head hit the pillow on the second night of camp and my best friends had nail polish. HAHA <3

3AM

So I couldn't sleep and I was awake since 3AM until 3PM, where I got knocked out for 3 hours of beautiful sleep. Bad idea. Not only did I postpone reading The Great Gatsby, I left my laptop on, and I'm currently typing with very hot palms. I also found this smidgen of grey in my eye's bottom lid, and when I gently run my fingertip along my waterline, I feel a bit of a lump. A painful lump. I don't know what it is, but it has gotten my paranoid all morning.

And I found this manga colouring tutorial. Hopefully I'll have time and play around with Photoshop and colour it :') Ah, those good ol' photoshop days :D I actually don't have much to say in this post, so I'll go now. I really can't be bothered to download the torrent for Skip-Beat! episode 3, so I'll just leave it for next week or whenever I'm bored out of my mind. For which I am. For the past 3 weeks. But I do enjoy my stay at home, because it's with my beloved family! But still, I really, really miss my friends. REALLY MISS MY FRIENDS. (L) I feel so socially detached ever since the last day of school :(

Oh yeah, last thing. ENCARTA DICTIONARY. I LOVED YOU. YOU WERE MY FRIEND, MY TRUSTED LITERARY ASSISTANT. And then I searched on Google as to why you weren't on my school laptop and I saw a very misleading, for which I am now going to take as true, title: Microsoft ends Encarta production line. EVERY STUDENT'S WORST NIGHTMARE. Well at least mine, because my portable electronic dictionary is no more. I can't even lie on my bed and have something small beside me to assist the reading of classic texts. Life is hard. I have to read sitting up now. For long hours.

new years

Thank you so, so much for the New Years text messages, despite the fact that I don't even have credit to reply! :D

I love you all as well, and I'm glad we have each other. I don't really know what to say, because you guys have stated everything in your text messages. But one thing's for sure: "Thank you for everything, and for making me the person I am today."

On a side note, I have finshed Queen of Death. It wasn't as scary as I thought it would have been... HAHA Okay bye :) I'm going to finish reading As You Like It and finish my Physics notes. I'M GOING JENOLAN CAVES TOMORROW. I'm actually looking forward to it, but then the car trip... I can't actually sit on a car for over 1 hour, because then I'll have a pounding headache and die from dizziness.

SO UNTIL THEN, MY LOYAL BLOG READERS!

past year

I'll save the hassle of going into detail and writing a post about what happened this year.

I love my family and friends. I don't think I could ever live with the deprivation of both of them, and if I were to, I would be an empty shell. Literally. I tend not to look back on the year, because I still have so much more ahead of me. I'll get to that later. But even if I do look back, it won't be about the darkest moments in the year. It'll just be the good memories that I'll cherish and consequently, remember.

I think I underestimated year 11 too much toward the end of the year. I think the idea of doing well in the first few exams made me too complacent for my own good, and I really don't think I'll do that toward the end of this year. I have too much to look forward to, too much to achieve, and too much to try for.

But even so, I don't think I'll ever lose sight of what's most important to me, especially when I see the people I love 5-7 days a week, non-stop.

You all are beacons of hopeful light for me. I will never forget you. Ever.

A ring is round, it has no end - that's how long I'll be your friend.

So cheesy HAHA But yes. HAPPY NEW YEAR'S EVE :D

SHM

I MISS YOU TOO TEEZLES :( <3

So today was the last tutor lesson for the year. In all honesty, I love tutor, and to think that it's about to end makes me feel a bit fhakhfalk. Toward the end of the lesson, we spent the last 10 minutes figuring out how sir was able to make a card appear. I SWEAR, THERE IS NO LOGIC IN HIS CARD TRICKS. NO LOGIC WHATSOEVER. I was staring at his hands, all dazed at what cards he was drawing out HAHA.

He gave us a booklet (now that I think about it, it can't be that bad... I hope) on SHM and Apps of Calc. as holiday homework. So hopefully I can get that out of the way by the end of the week. I need to set up my study table as well and hunt for more textbooks. On HSC papers. Because there can be no limit on practicing HSC papers. NONE AT ALL.

I have never felt this fanatical about maths before LOL. Maybe it's because I've lost probably a lot of hope in Business Studies *CRIES A WATERFALL*. I suppose English wouldn't be my main concern, but I do know that Physics, Maths and (half-half) Business are. Then again, they should be all important considering the fact that I've been indulging in my 10 units.

OKAY BYE. I WILL PROBABLY RARELY BLOG BECAUSE AS OF NOW, I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY :( My friends are what keep my life up-beat (hopefully that's grammatically correct). I mean, I think my family does as well, but I think I'll just keep that part confidential and away from the prying claws of the internet. 'Tis a dark place out there (here).

OKAY BYE :D

bags

I'm feeling a bit on the down-side today because I wasn't able to see my best friends at night. Especially when one of my best friends has had work placement all week and the other's had a sporting injury :( I really miss them, a whole lot. I hope that our entire group will be able to go out in the holidays for some intense and quality girl-bonding time!

I've spent the past 5 hours locked in the same room with my sister so that we could watch Disney movies to our heart's content (more like to my mind's ease because I have this fear that if I walk into the kitchen, some paranormal demon might come and throw me at a wall).

I wouldn't say this is the best end to the school year, but I don't think this is the worst either. I just attended so many pointless things this week. Really.

I sound so overly emotional, but I really miss my best friends.

So, so much.

LUUminary!

Teezles, I can't reply to your text :S So I'll just say that I prefer LUUminary over LUUtopia :D <3

ugh

GARGH. YOU ARE PRECISELY THE REASON WHY I APPEAR OFFLINE.

NEVER EVER BADMOUTH ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS, BECAUSE I WILL HIT YOU. I really, really really want to unfriend you. Literally.

I hope we never talk again.