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I FEEL SO ILLITERATE WHEN I'M WRITING MY PHYSICS REPORT. Must finish by tonight, or at least, by tomorrow afternoon. I hate dragging on pieces of writing. I either finish it within a few short hours, or I leave it there to rot on my desktop.

I have tutor tonight, and I'm so wiped out. I think I'll start printing notes for Business by... tomorrow?

There's so much to do, and I think it's finally starting to hit me that this is my HSC year. A little late, I know.

Whoever said this year would be the most memorable is right - however, it's also the year that everyone puts in their all.

SO MUCH EFFORT *WHINES*.

FAR OUT

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I just found out that I don't have a hard copy of my Motors and Generators notes.

And I lost the electronic copy in my hard drive format.

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STARTING FROM SCRATCH AGAIN. THIS IS NOT THE RIGHT TIME.

i heard you were a wild one

And I brushed it off like it was nothing.

But in reality, it was everything, and it could potentially result in nothing.

i'm out of touch, i'm out of love

So... I was just lying in bed. In fact, I've moved myself into a sitting position under my blanket. I suppose it's a stage for me to get myself to wake up on Saturdays. Properly.

I was thinking about my ranks. Since reports come out on the 21st, I think it's going to decrease the chance of eating out the next day :( I'm not pleased with my ranks - for any of my subjects (disregarding one or two). I don't know if it's because I really don't have any idea how I did compared to the entirety of the grade, or whether it's because I really haven't tried enough. Probably both.

I think it's especially English, that I need to up my game for. The first two assessments screwed me over. Especially that speech. I was shocked when I got my mark LOL. Oh well, what's done is done. Hopefully, the next assessment is a hand-in essay for comparative study. I like comparative study.

see right through your heart

So, I've rekindled my love for R&B.

Anyway, I aim to finish 3 sections for business today during free period! I feel so under-prepared right now... I'm not going to do applications of calculus (3u) for the exam, so I'm stacking up on Jimmy's homework. I might go on at 9 to 9:30PM today... Ugh, seriously, where is my life going. I feel that I'm not doing enough to become what I want to become, especially with my business teacher breathing down our necks (not literally - that's creepy) and bragging about her son's private school life. The more I think about it, the more I feel that it's not our fault we're disadvantaged LOL. It's a hint, if you didn't get it.

Anyway, I have school in a bit. I might sit alone for free period today... but I'd be way too lonely. Oh stuff it, I'm going to sit with people today and study as hard as I can. I'm beyond tired right now - I haven't had 8 hours sleep since... forever ago! I need to make amendments to my Belonging essay as well, so that should be done tonight. Seriously, damn it all.

My eyebags make me feel disgusting.

Okay that's all for now :) I have no time for anything. CIAAAAAAAAO!

Some people are just too joyful in the ungodly hours of the morning. Seriously. *pointedly stares*

papers

FHKWAFHSAKLHFSALKFA THESE PAST PAPERS FROM TUTOR ARE KILLING ME SO BADLY. I CANT EVEN GET PAST QUESTION 2 WITHOUT WASTING A COLUMN IN MY BOOK. HFKADHFAKLDHFADKLFHAKFHDAK.

I'm going to go and finish off what remains now. I need to power through all of this by tomorrow night! If not... I'll go and dedicate my time to this tomorrow and finish my anti-climatic story for Belonging tonight. Seriously, FML.

I also have a Physics topic test next Thursday (we're to assume it's on Thursday). My half yearly mark is currently on the line.

FHDAUKJFHAKFHAKS BUSINESS. ENGLISH. MATHS. PHYSICS. WHY ARE MY FOUR SUBJECTS SO DRAINING D:

cosine

IT WAS A COSINE GRAPH. A COFAHDUIFHAFIUAHFBCSJADNFACILKJ

I CAN'T EXPRESS HOW STUPID I FEEL RIGHT NOW.

So bloody ridiculous, fml. It was 15% *CRIES*

heaven

I'm sooooo addicted to Ailee's Heaven. The story behind the mv was actually really, really sad too. I cried :(

So I'm going to spend perhaps... an hour to do the remaining amount of Physics research before taking advantage of my now functioning printer to do probably 2-3 copies. Yes, I must take immense precautions! So yeah. I'll start with blogging about my day, because I haven't done that in a long while.

We had House Captain and Vice Captain elections and then we went to rollcall. Nick wasn't at rollcall, so I sat in silence and talked to Raymond for a bit. Then I had maths, and had a few black jokes thrown on me 8) and then did more Application of Calculus questions before rushing off to English. Little Panda thought I was mad at her, but I could never be mad at her! <3 So then we had English, and Jura and I were feeling productive, so we basically finished off half the questions during class. We then analysed Sonnet XIII before continuing with the questions.

Had recess - I initially borrowed Annie Lam's jumper, but it looked like I was a giant so I borrowed Tanya's one instead, while she wore Lamrocks! Their jumpers smelt so nice :') So then we stood there chatting and then we had Physics. We were at the computer room doing the Westinghouse vs. Edison dotpoint, and feeling productive once again, Theresa and I finished it within one period, printing a copy for all four of us. Then we went to do a bit more research for Physics before finishing up and heading for lunch.

Lunch was spent eating and chatting again. I love my girls :') Yeah, and I returned Teezles's jumper to her before she and Steph left for Ancient :D THANK YOU! <3 Lamrock and I headed to Business where we started our next topic, Operations, with a few videos and slides from Miss's powerpoint. I suppose having miss go through her powerpoint helps me write faster?

So yeah, I waited after school with Cindy for my mum to come pick me up and waited for mum again while she went in to pick my sister up too. Came home, at strawberries dipped in chocolate and some crackers before finishing off the remaining load of English homework and now I'm going to start Physics :)

Ciao! :D

yes

Othilia, yes I did know! :D I already finished reading the novel in the holidays, but I really liked it, so I bought it :)

I'm off to see the dermatologist tomorrow, so hopefully I can get some ideas on what kind of crappy skin I've been blessed with. Really.

I am also one and a half chapters behind for maths. fhdakfhajklfhafka. FGKSADHUADHFASKLFHADK. I have no words. I don't think anyone expected my maths teacher to fly through the bloody 4u course like this. Which reminds me: "how about we do it like this: trial and no error" fhadkjfhak  gets me every time.

I'm so tired. I feel like I'm running out of fuel. I need to get back into shape... so I'm downloading Zumba. WOOOH! Motivation!

Okay bye :( I have so much to do.

bookshops

I bought a box set of a book series, 3 textbooks and Hungry Jacks. My careers adviser was nice, and has probably made me realise that yes, it is possible, with effort.

Today was a good day. And I'll finish maths homework now. Okay bye :)

testemonials

Tutor was fun, but draining at the same time. I'm so sick of coming home to late nights. I'm pretty sure Sir and the rest of the class don't like it either, but hopefully this will be the very last time we have to make up for it. I have to do that English belonging thing that miss told us to do, and finish off the last inverse functions exercise before starting on Integration homework.

I continued to read J-Horror and K-Horror on Wiki. Wikipedia-ing horror movies is the best. You still get scared, but not to a scarring degree. 'TIS MORE EPIC IF YOU MAKE IT OUT TO BE. I'm going to get my next batch of contacts soon. I'M STILL ON THE SAME DEGREE. YAY!

I... am still eating. I don't think I can mentally cope with English tomorrow morning. Nor Mr M's droning. No tutorials tomorrow morning either, from what I heard from Cindy and Juliana... so I'm not going early. Oh yeah, I have Physics homework.

I need to make Business notes.

The woes of a HSC student. Version zero point one (thus far).

long day

I came home after an 8 hour school day. I am so tired, and I turned on some music to get into study mode. And it happened to be B2ST. And then, inside, I died a little because of drifting from Yo Seob. Their music was so good... and it still is! I think I just overplayed it and then got use to all their songs.

Yo Seob, I will never leave you again :( I LOVE YOU, HGFKAGHDKAHFKA.

And my exam is tomorrow. I am nowhere near prepared. After tomorrow's exam, I'm going to go and eat with my mum, come home and write notes, and sleep to my heart's content because exams are when I get the antsiest.

PLEASE, LORD, HELP ME DO WELL TOMORROW. IT'S 10% OF MY INTERNAL MARK. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. I'm using my dad's laptop, if you're wondering why I'm online LOL.

Okay now, bye! I have another 15 minutes of free time before I go and immerse myself in polynomials and complex numbers. I'm so sick of these topics, seriously. I need new ones in my life now.

And today we were talking about horoscopes. Let me just say, that the most 'sensitive' spot, determined by the zodiac website Steph used, ones for two of my lovelies, was quite funny and will never be mentioned in a mindless conversation. Unless it needs to be brought up between my friends for the sake of laughing. Which is all the time. I love my best friends.

"there was a special link that no mathematical calculations could have derived"

I'm texting my two girls right now, and yes Tanya, I can imagine it. I might die from over-exposure to adorableness. fhajdkfhakjlfs. :D I love my girlies! Steph, heavy breathing. HAHAHAFJHSDLJFKDAH. *DIES*

I'm kind of panicking now. I have a math exam on Thursday and I don't feel prepared. And I stuffed up my Physics test. Why did I have a random brain fart and began talking about the Doppler Effect. It didn't even fit. GOODBYE 80%+ SCORE. DAMMIT.

out of my league

I feel like I can never stop studying maths. You're probably going to roll your eyes and laugh and tell me that of course, because I'm dedicated to the subject, but that's not the case this time! I actually don't know if I'm studying enough or not D: I remember last year, when I did my second assessment task, I sat back after a study session and claimed that I was ready and I had prepared enough. I just feel like I have prepared nothing for the 10% maths exam, and it's something that counts. I haven't even touched the Polynomial questions either, because I had trouble with them.

I feel like I'm at a loss with everything, ever since I came back to school. ARGH, I HOPE BUSINESS DIES A PAINFUL DEATH NOW, AND THAT PHYSICS WILL BE LESS ABSTRACT. And that English wouldn't be so repetitive. And that the Maths tutorial would be in the afternoon. Okay, I shall be off now. I will now go and immerse myself in the heavy readings about the aether and revise my practicals. Again.

I really like our new topic for Physics. It's a manly topic from what I've heard LOL. Nevertheless, I think learning about it today made me feel like I can actually do something and understand it. And work it out.

Okay bye :)

lately

So... I'm re-writing my schedule right now. I realised my stays at school are either too long or too short. Really. I now have tutorials for 4u maths in the morning. During the most ungodly hours of a school day. I really pray that nothing clashes LOL Seriously. I mean the tutorials.

murderer

I killed 2 bugs today. One on Lamrock's shoulder with my wallet and one on my wall just then. I have yet to kill another fly. I HAVE PASSED THE HALF WAY MARK FOR THE COMPLEX NUMBERS QUESTIONS! Ridiculous, I feel like I've wasted so much time LOL. It's already 7:53PM... I will go off and do a bit of reading for Physics before immersing myself in Preliminary Business Studies. Ugh, business.

Okay bye :)

timetable

So... I got my timetable for the year. It's probably going to be the very last time table we'll ever get made for us. Ever. I feel old. I now have four teachers for four of my subjects, English, Maths, Physics and Business. Tuesday is the lightest day for me. Really, because I'm just attending school for Maths. Oh yeah, and I'm able to go home early on Thursdays, as well as Tuesdays now. I might actually go home and eat and do actual studying. Ugh, I need to modify everything on my existing timetable now. *insert profane passage*

Well, at least we have a fixed room for maths now. HAHA And today during Business, I had this sudden emotional plateau where I just felt hopeless. I really do blame my business results (lol, I really, really don't like Business - it's currently my weakest subject), and the fact that I have neglected it. So I should be blaming myself, but I'll just continue shaming my business paper. Lamrock, Michelle and I had a long, long talk with Miss about everything career-wise, the assessment task and work. I found it comforting, really :) I feel better and motivated now.

So... yeah. I just wanted to blog about my day. And Physics exam is on Monday, so I will slowly prep myself up for that. I feel so tired (physically). I also moved rollcalls and switched houses. I am now in what many deem to be the Gryffindor of my school. I am still a Hufflepuff by heart. Since I've been there for 5 years. Yes, five years. But nevertheless, I will now have cross country and athletics with Steph (we were always in the same age group though HAHA). What's quite funny is the fact that my old rollcall is actually right next to my new one. And my new rollcall (according to assembly lines) is in front of Jura's.

Okay, goodbye! :)

complaints

I have officially finished the first page of the Complex Numbers booklet. Some of the questions didn't provide the answers I expected? I mean, like when it says it's a conjugate, like W = A - i, they used W = A + i. I would sit there for five minutes trying to come to terms with what it should be. So yeah, 27/85 questions! Seriously, I better do well for the exam or I will feel eternally miffed when I do maths. So I have tutor tonight - sir changed the duration again, so it's only going to be 1.5 hours of 3u instead of 3 hours of 3u and 4u.

Is it normal to feel strangely disinclined to go to school? I mean, I go for the people and probably the free periods, but really, I'd rather spend my time at home. Literally at home. That's why I haven't been going out before Steph's birthday HAHA. I don't have the heart to take out my Infinite badge from its small plastic cover yet. Oh yeah, yesterday this guy in my class asked sir a question, and it was pretty funny. I'll tell you in person, because it's going to sound too crude over the internet HFJAKHFLA.

I really, really pray that we don't have English first thing in the morning tomorrow. Annie, if you're reading this, can you please send the comprehension questions for Business please? I didn't get any email :S (the activity ones). And I finished Act 5, but I left out 2 questions. But those 2 questions had 2 parts each, and I did one part in each already, so it would mathematically equate to 1 question.

Oh yeah - Othilia, do you still want to share a locker this year? We have to put the deposit in soon HAHA :) Same place? Is ours number 43? I actually don't remember the number anymore... HAHA.

Okay, I'll be off now. Much preparation is needed for the upcoming exams - I have 3 lined up in the first 2 weeks, and I can't afford to stuff any of them up. I will read over Physics a bit and then print out some Polynomial questions. Actually, I'll do the polynomials ones first. Or the other. I don't know anymore.

OKAY BYE.

groggy

So... Tutor was at 11AM this morning. I woke up 20 minutes or so before the actual start of tutor. I thought I was late, until I came into the waiting room that was filled with only 3 people HAHA So yeah, we chatted and then right on the dot, at 11, my entire class came. It goes to show how lazy we are.

In all honesty, I didn't sleep well last night. It was hot and cold, and even though I slept until 10:40AM, I was still so, so tired. Throughout tutor, I was trying not to let my stomach grumble because I didn't eat breakfast (for the first time ever - I think) and when I got home, I was too mentally exhausted to go and microwave some food, so I slept from around 1:30 until just half an hour ago. And now I'm eating. What would you call the mix between 'dinner' and 'lunch'? Luncher? Probably. So yeah, I am eating 'luncher' now.

I am so sosososososo excited for tomorrow! :D I MISS MY GIRLIES SO MUCH! And it's someone's special day tomorrow as well! ;D I actually haven't seen them all (as a group) since... forever ago :( I don't know what to wear for tomorrow, considering the weather's a bit here and there lately. So yes, that is all! :D I will be on again... tomorrow. I think. Right after I get home from the fun.

JULIANA, IF YOU SEE THIS, TEXT ME WHEN YOUR SCHEDULE ALLOWS YOU AT LEAST 30 MINUTES ON MSN SO WE CAN LOOK FOR THE POLYNOMIALS QUESTIONS. PLEASE. I BEG YOU. You are so busy, seriously HAHAHA

practicals

For the HSC, are we supposed to know our pracs back to front as well? o_o Because holy crap, if that's the case, there's going to be so much to remember and understand. DOOOOOOMED. Anyway, I'm going to go off and mentally prepare for Maths now. Goodbye! I'll study more after tutor/church.