crashing down

So it just hit me that I may not be able to obtain the marks necessary to get into the course I want. This makes me feel extremely... disappointed in myself. Especially in Business. Since that essay 25%, I'm going to feel so sad when I come back after the holidays. I just... that essay really screwed me over.

I don't know what I'm doing with everything anymore. I feel so reassured for my other subjects and for Business, I feel like I'm trying so hard and nothing's happening.

I'm getting my braces tightened tomorrow too.

enough

Never.

Ever.

Enough.

hopeless

I feel this great need to die in a hole. I don't feel great, I feel so disappointed and I expected a lot better after my revision over circle geometry. Those theorems were useless to me (honestly) and I can now say that my score will land within the 80s-90s - that is, give or take. I believe I have sustained a seven-mark loss, (of course 3-4 marks leeway) and at this rate, I don't think I'll be able to get into the Extension 2 class. The only reason why I wanted to do it in the first place is to drop Chemistry and Extension English, and yes, I do enjoy maths. But the exam today seemed almost unreal and I think I've just been overshadowed by my previous mark. Or perhaps due to this shitty day, I have caused my downfall.

I think after realising I used up my 2mm of remaining correction tape left, that everything went down hill from there. I feel really, really insecure without my correction tape, and without it, I will need to resort to liquid paper (LOL I hate liquid paper). So for every question, I would leave space to fill it in, and I'm not even sure right now, that I've filled everything in. I hate liquid paper and I hope it burns.

LOL BLOODY HELL. NOW MY RANK WILL DROP. I AM SO ANGRY WITH MYSELF. I don't care if my ranks drop for anything else right now, I just can't afford to have Maths being down like that. fbsadfakj Well, here's something I want to share with you. Dong Ho's cute LOL.





LOL Dong Ho's face when he puts his hand on his chest <3 And Jung Juri's hilarious LOL I feel so detached right now. fhkajhfakl Some orange juice and Physics study will hopefully get me out of this. Hopefully. One more exam to go.