Today has got to be the most unproductive day I've ever lived through ever since our stuvac started LOL.
I woke up, and I tried sooooo hard to memorise some quotes. And then I lazed around and did nothing but watch masterchef. And then I tried studying my case studies. And then I realise my biological memory card was full, and I got tired and then I slept. For two hours.
Two hours is very precious.
GARGHHHHH! Okay time to try and shove some case studies into my head before I start Module C. Major sigh right here.
Showing posts with label HSC. Show all posts
Showing posts with label HSC. Show all posts
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
churn
I will save the blogging until after the HSC, and even then, I doubt I'll start blogging substantial chunks of life.
I can't churn out anything English-y. At all. IS THIS WHAT DROPPING EXTENSION 1 DOES TO YOU?! FML, IF I HAD KNOWN, I WOULD'VE KEPT IT FHAJKFHDSALKFHASKLHFAKFHSAFKHAS. Words cannot express my frustration that I feel my studying is leading me to nowhere. My two theory subjects, English and Business, will slaughter my ATAR within the split second I walk into that examination room. I feel that I can't produce anything worth reading for Paper 1, and even more so for Paper 2 because of my lack of grounded knowledge.
FARRRRRAFHSDJFKHASDKLFHSADKLFHSA.
I'm seriously panicking. I've been studying for hours, and I only have 4 subjects. FOUR SUBJECTS. PEOPLE DO 6 SUBJECTS AND THEY'RE COPING.
Lord, what have I reduced myself to.
Okay I'm going to hand write some short-answers and hope to the Lord that they answer their respective questions. FML.
I can't churn out anything English-y. At all. IS THIS WHAT DROPPING EXTENSION 1 DOES TO YOU?! FML, IF I HAD KNOWN, I WOULD'VE KEPT IT FHAJKFHDSALKFHASKLHFAKFHSAFKHAS. Words cannot express my frustration that I feel my studying is leading me to nowhere. My two theory subjects, English and Business, will slaughter my ATAR within the split second I walk into that examination room. I feel that I can't produce anything worth reading for Paper 1, and even more so for Paper 2 because of my lack of grounded knowledge.
FARRRRRAFHSDJFKHASDKLFHSADKLFHSA.
I'm seriously panicking. I've been studying for hours, and I only have 4 subjects. FOUR SUBJECTS. PEOPLE DO 6 SUBJECTS AND THEY'RE COPING.
Lord, what have I reduced myself to.
Okay I'm going to hand write some short-answers and hope to the Lord that they answer their respective questions. FML.
Sunday, September 2, 2012
exhausted
I don't know about you guys, but I've been physically and mentally exhausted lately. I tend to sleep more often, I tend to feel extremely lazy to do anything and I think I'm beginning to have doubts right now LOL. About life after the HSC and whether I could get the ATAR I want.
I looked back at my older posts and I chortle. And then mentally berate myself and cry because I was so naive back then to think that a 99 was possible LOL. I stuffed up here and there, and I'm trying to push myself to at least get a 95.
MAJOR SIGH.
And I'm changing the format of my notes. Again. Different font, larger space between the text, and bigger diagrams.
Because everyone loves pictures.
Okay that is all now. I can't really update you on my life as of now, because I realise my 'life' has actually deteriorated so dramatically that I feel like I have one, but really I don't.
I'm sleepy, but I'll just push forth so I can write some more notes and sleep for a bit. And then wake up to write that business essay and then after that, go to sleep again, go to church and then to tutor. And hopefully start on Physics notes by tonight... The last section, that is.
WOE IS ME!
I looked back at my older posts and I chortle. And then mentally berate myself and cry because I was so naive back then to think that a 99 was possible LOL. I stuffed up here and there, and I'm trying to push myself to at least get a 95.
MAJOR SIGH.
And I'm changing the format of my notes. Again. Different font, larger space between the text, and bigger diagrams.
Because everyone loves pictures.
Okay that is all now. I can't really update you on my life as of now, because I realise my 'life' has actually deteriorated so dramatically that I feel like I have one, but really I don't.
I'm sleepy, but I'll just push forth so I can write some more notes and sleep for a bit. And then wake up to write that business essay and then after that, go to sleep again, go to church and then to tutor. And hopefully start on Physics notes by tonight... The last section, that is.
WOE IS ME!
Saturday, August 4, 2012
trials fmlfmlfmlfmlfadjfahfksala
I believe when my marks come back for every exam I've sat for, since the umat until my Physics trial yesterday (30% goodbye...), I will be so hollow.
GOTTA KEEP FIGHTING ON FAHJFKSADHKLJFAHKFAHKA
I think after trials are over, I need to sit myself down and deconstruct every subject I've done and write heaps of extended responses for English and Business, and also actually finish a past paper for Physics LOL. And maths... let's just say, I need to keep practicing LOL
I want a high ATAR, and it's not going to happen if I don't up my game.
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
all for this
I would like to dedicate this post to the most important thing in my life right now.
We've had our ups and downs, and right now, I really don't feel like doing anything about it. I feel like giving up, I feel like taking back everything. I want to start again, I want to savour each moment and break our relationship down, piece by piece. I would like to understand you, to get a second chance, just do do everything right. I've messed up pretty badly in the past, and I just want to re-live all those moments where I had the potential to change whatever I did. HSC, you suck :( Seriously...
THIS IS ALL FOR MY HSC FAR OUT I DON'T WANT TO STUDY ANYMORE BECAUSE I'M SO MENTALLY EXHAUSTED FROM THIS MONOTONY AND THIS RIDICULOUS AMOUNT OF INFORMATION I NEED TO ABSORB BY MY TRIALS UGHHHHHH.
And UMAT too. I've neglected you.
GARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
And my orthodontist appointment is on the 2nd of July. I'm getting my braces tightened, so pray I can actually come back without having shocks of pain jolting toward my brain. I'm handing in my assignment tomorrow too - I don't want to see my work anymore, it's been five weeks and I don't like work sitting there.
Effort, hopefully, will pay off.
And I'm disappointed (ish) for my exams LOL. Well, I suppose I did alright, but it's not enough to pull my average up. Pray that the actual external exam (especially the trial) will not stuff up my ATAR.
I'm freezing to death, and I'm so lazy to do anything.
We've had our ups and downs, and right now, I really don't feel like doing anything about it. I feel like giving up, I feel like taking back everything. I want to start again, I want to savour each moment and break our relationship down, piece by piece. I would like to understand you, to get a second chance, just do do everything right. I've messed up pretty badly in the past, and I just want to re-live all those moments where I had the potential to change whatever I did. HSC, you suck :( Seriously...
THIS IS ALL FOR MY HSC FAR OUT I DON'T WANT TO STUDY ANYMORE BECAUSE I'M SO MENTALLY EXHAUSTED FROM THIS MONOTONY AND THIS RIDICULOUS AMOUNT OF INFORMATION I NEED TO ABSORB BY MY TRIALS UGHHHHHH.
And UMAT too. I've neglected you.
GARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
And my orthodontist appointment is on the 2nd of July. I'm getting my braces tightened, so pray I can actually come back without having shocks of pain jolting toward my brain. I'm handing in my assignment tomorrow too - I don't want to see my work anymore, it's been five weeks and I don't like work sitting there.
Effort, hopefully, will pay off.
And I'm disappointed (ish) for my exams LOL. Well, I suppose I did alright, but it's not enough to pull my average up. Pray that the actual external exam (especially the trial) will not stuff up my ATAR.
I'm freezing to death, and I'm so lazy to do anything.
Monday, October 24, 2011
brownies
Verena, I'm sorry I left you in the library at free period :(
The challenge exercise is killing me, bit by bit. CHUNK BY CHUNK, ACTUALLY. And reading Othilia's post makes me feel extremely wary when I'm now going to be confronted by the actual HSC (with the inclusion of the preparation to this actual exam period). For the past two years, it's been: "your school certificate results is the most important, it shows you how well you'll do in actual HSC" or "the preliminary year - nothing counts" that kind of crap. Those statements might not actually be accurate, but those are the ones that caught me the most. Now that the start to the HSC year has begun, I can't help but feel that Optometry/Medicine is, once more, too far for me to grasp.
Honestly, though I've had many divergences to various occupations (such as being a psychologist, pharmacist or teacher), I think from the very beginning I've always stuck to medicine deep, deep down. Or at least the concept of 4u maths (so sad). I remember sitting in my GP's office and telling him I wanted to become a doctor. He actually laughed at that idea and said one thing: "4u maths is hard. You need that to become a doctor." LOL I actually had the audacity to say that I'll do it. But that was 10 years ago. I suppose I have achieved the 4u aspect of that, but now I realise that it's only the beginning.
I really, really want to do Optometry/Medicine. I have never wanted anything so badly. I don't see myself doing Business in university, nor do I see myself doing any sort of industrial science (nanotechnology was a long forgotten and short-lived ambition). I don't think I can even perceive my future self to be donned in a white coat and carrying a writing pad as a psychologist (maybe they don't actually do that...).
I have re-evaluated why I wanted this so badly, and I came to two distinct reasons: the idea of injecting (sounds bad LOL) people with life once again and also because of the interesting nature of the actual occupation. Yes, I did not omit my own selfish reasons. I honestly don't carry a particular passion for sciency-science (though I know Steph does, and I know she's good at it), but I do enjoy it. I am willing to commit myself to it. I think, I've come to this conclusion because I've probably dipped a foot in most faculties in my school, choosing a variety of subjects and all. Looking back, I actually can't find a reason why I chose both Physics and Chemistry. Was it a fad? I hope not. I honestly do love Physics (yes, I love it), and I did like Chemistry. NOTE THE PAST TENSE. But I think after that pharmaceutical dream, I kind of lost it. I put so much effort into Chemistry, it became tedious. I did the homework, but I didn't study. I think it's also because of the teacher I had.
I'm not saying she's bad, or she can't channel her knowledge to us students, but it's just... I think I needed a fresh start to year 11. I've been taught by her over a great span of years, and I suppose her teaching methods have gotten mundane. I do miss her though. I also miss my year 11 maths teacher. Such a cute little woman. Reminds me of little Gekko. They both get angry over the most trivial things, it's laughable. She is, perhaps, the best maths teacher I've had at this school. Ever.
So yeah. Though my checklist of 4 subjects and the idea of 10 units sounds like a piece of cake, I don't think it is. I'm beginning to think that though I'm taking this risk, I can't score an ATAR above 95. I know, I aim too high and it's almost too unrealistic. And maybe it is. But I suppose I'm willing to put the time and effort into this, because I'm not willing to repeat this year.
I SHALL SHOOT FOR THE MOON, AND PROBABLY LAND AMONG THE STARS. Of course, the stars that are the closest to the moon. And the UMAT. I really need to purchase practice materials. Anybody have any idea where to get them? I'm not too sure about some of the ones I've been seeing.
The challenge exercise is killing me, bit by bit. CHUNK BY CHUNK, ACTUALLY. And reading Othilia's post makes me feel extremely wary when I'm now going to be confronted by the actual HSC (with the inclusion of the preparation to this actual exam period). For the past two years, it's been: "your school certificate results is the most important, it shows you how well you'll do in actual HSC" or "the preliminary year - nothing counts" that kind of crap. Those statements might not actually be accurate, but those are the ones that caught me the most. Now that the start to the HSC year has begun, I can't help but feel that Optometry/Medicine is, once more, too far for me to grasp.
Honestly, though I've had many divergences to various occupations (such as being a psychologist, pharmacist or teacher), I think from the very beginning I've always stuck to medicine deep, deep down. Or at least the concept of 4u maths (so sad). I remember sitting in my GP's office and telling him I wanted to become a doctor. He actually laughed at that idea and said one thing: "4u maths is hard. You need that to become a doctor." LOL I actually had the audacity to say that I'll do it. But that was 10 years ago. I suppose I have achieved the 4u aspect of that, but now I realise that it's only the beginning.
I really, really want to do Optometry/Medicine. I have never wanted anything so badly. I don't see myself doing Business in university, nor do I see myself doing any sort of industrial science (nanotechnology was a long forgotten and short-lived ambition). I don't think I can even perceive my future self to be donned in a white coat and carrying a writing pad as a psychologist (maybe they don't actually do that...).
I have re-evaluated why I wanted this so badly, and I came to two distinct reasons: the idea of injecting (sounds bad LOL) people with life once again and also because of the interesting nature of the actual occupation. Yes, I did not omit my own selfish reasons. I honestly don't carry a particular passion for sciency-science (though I know Steph does, and I know she's good at it), but I do enjoy it. I am willing to commit myself to it. I think, I've come to this conclusion because I've probably dipped a foot in most faculties in my school, choosing a variety of subjects and all. Looking back, I actually can't find a reason why I chose both Physics and Chemistry. Was it a fad? I hope not. I honestly do love Physics (yes, I love it), and I did like Chemistry. NOTE THE PAST TENSE. But I think after that pharmaceutical dream, I kind of lost it. I put so much effort into Chemistry, it became tedious. I did the homework, but I didn't study. I think it's also because of the teacher I had.
I'm not saying she's bad, or she can't channel her knowledge to us students, but it's just... I think I needed a fresh start to year 11. I've been taught by her over a great span of years, and I suppose her teaching methods have gotten mundane. I do miss her though. I also miss my year 11 maths teacher. Such a cute little woman. Reminds me of little Gekko. They both get angry over the most trivial things, it's laughable. She is, perhaps, the best maths teacher I've had at this school. Ever.
So yeah. Though my checklist of 4 subjects and the idea of 10 units sounds like a piece of cake, I don't think it is. I'm beginning to think that though I'm taking this risk, I can't score an ATAR above 95. I know, I aim too high and it's almost too unrealistic. And maybe it is. But I suppose I'm willing to put the time and effort into this, because I'm not willing to repeat this year.
I SHALL SHOOT FOR THE MOON, AND PROBABLY LAND AMONG THE STARS. Of course, the stars that are the closest to the moon. And the UMAT. I really need to purchase practice materials. Anybody have any idea where to get them? I'm not too sure about some of the ones I've been seeing.
Friday, September 9, 2011
whatever
Says my sister who sees the end of my education (which is nearing) as something trivial. This has been said by the person who perceives her Saturday homework exam (which lasts 10 minutes) as something that will be the death of her. Which reminds me of my uncle, who says that the Opportunity Class placement is more important than the Selective Schools placement, which the latter would potentially shape the individual's future. I'd say it'd pretty much be equal, but I think people are taking carpe diem too much to heart.
I think I'm going to go on the Bored of Studies website and fish for some study tips and effective study methods. I know water helps me study really well. I have so many pimples (and growing acne - LOL finally living up to my name) and I really, really need to get rid of it. One on my face feels like a bruise right now :( I feel really annoyed with everything. Is this a sign? :O AWESOME, IF IT IS. 'Tis the red waterfall, I am hoping for. Okay, I'll be off now. Bye!
I think I'm going to go on the Bored of Studies website and fish for some study tips and effective study methods. I know water helps me study really well. I have so many pimples (and growing acne - LOL finally living up to my name) and I really, really need to get rid of it. One on my face feels like a bruise right now :( I feel really annoyed with everything. Is this a sign? :O AWESOME, IF IT IS. 'Tis the red waterfall, I am hoping for. Okay, I'll be off now. Bye!
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