GARGHHHH BS

BUSINESS STUDIES FAR OUTFAHFJKSDHFLAKFHAK!

I'm doing okay.

Or so I thought, relative to my school's cohort. I suddenly had a shock of realisation that probably 99.9999999999% of the state will be using QANTAS as a case study, and that'll be extremely detrimental to my marks in section IV because I won't be able to compete with probably half the grade.

Oh shit.

And now I'm researching some case studies as back up. I'll probably have 3-5. I want to cry because my teacher said only one was okay :(... And she seems like she skims through HSC papers LOL.

So yeah... fudge cakes. I gotta find case studies *screams*.

exhausted

I don't know about you guys, but I've been physically and mentally exhausted lately. I tend to sleep more often, I tend to feel extremely lazy to do anything and I think I'm beginning to have doubts right now LOL. About life after the HSC and whether I could get the ATAR I want.

I looked back at my older posts and I chortle. And then mentally berate myself and cry because I was so naive back then to think that a 99 was possible LOL. I stuffed up here and there, and I'm trying to push myself to at least get a 95.

MAJOR SIGH.

And I'm changing the format of my notes. Again. Different font, larger space between the text, and bigger diagrams.

Because everyone loves pictures.

Okay that is all now. I can't really update you on my life as of now, because I realise my 'life' has actually deteriorated so dramatically that I feel like I have one, but really I don't.

I'm sleepy, but I'll just push forth so I can write some more notes and sleep for a bit. And then wake up to write that business essay and then after that, go to sleep again, go to church and then to tutor. And hopefully start on Physics notes by tonight... The last section, that is.

WOE IS ME!

ah shoot

I realised the subject I've been neglecting the most is the one that requires extensive preparation. I'm talking long notes filled with ridiculous quotes that demonstrate the concept of belonging and its many aspects. Ah, time well spent, Annie. Time. Well. Spent.

Fudge cakes. :(

forget it

That phrase is so sharp, so cutting.

It's like I'm not even worth their time in explaining something.

Thanks.

secrets

And... maybe I should've just kept everything to myself and hopefully one day, someone would be able to hear the screams of my heart even without a single sound escaping my lips.

And then I realised.

Emotions are heavy burdens to carry.

frustration

I'm sorry I irritate you so much.

trials fmlfmlfmlfmlfadjfahfksala

I believe when my marks come back for every exam I've sat for, since the umat until my Physics trial yesterday (30% goodbye...), I will be so hollow.

GOTTA KEEP FIGHTING ON FAHJFKSADHKLJFAHKFAHKA

I think after trials are over, I need to sit myself down and deconstruct every subject I've done and write heaps of extended responses for English and Business, and also actually finish a past paper for Physics LOL. And maths... let's just say, I need to keep practicing LOL

I want a high ATAR, and it's not going to happen if I don't up my game.