Wednesday, September 14, 2011

shady

Throughout this post, I will be telling you about my regrets and... yeah. That's about it. 'Tis a sad life! Anyway, I'll start with year 7 maths. Now that I look back, it is perhaps the most logical thing I could have ever come across. Yet I still achieved mediocre grades and I think I was too blind and crazy about English to care any less. Music, back then wasn't my forte. I have to admit, I achieved a rank of 10+ for music. I enjoyed Home Economics and Industrial Arts (IN EVERY WOMAN, THERE IS A MAN HAHA) and I thought PDHPE was alright.

Years 8-9 were, I believe, my most darkest years. My grades began dropping to dangerously low levels, I became uncaring of everything, immersed in the idea of 'boys' (what was I thinking?) and stopped practising piano. Hence the first ever, 2 B's that I acquired. Bloody Hell. People tell us not to regret what has happened, but smile and accept it. No. I cannot do that, and I feel that I should be because of the potential dip in my grades. One of the most frequent questions I asked myself included: "why did I do that?" "why did I like him?" "WHY DID I NOT NOTICE HOW ABYSMAL MY GRADES WERE?"

Year 10 was perhaps my turning point. I began tutor, began to explore mathematics (that sounded ridiculous) and began to try harder for all my subjects. Life began to take a turn for the better, I began to understand the content more, I began to read over my previous years' books and I began to pay attention. This was also the last hurdle of junior high school before I started senior school and I suppose I took it seriously. However, after that English exam, my study patterns stuffed up for the rest of my exams. I gave up entirely on studying and decided to wing the exams, day by day. I was satisfied with my marks, though.

Year 11, this year, is probably the greatest period of stress I have been through so far. The rollover period was a blur, but it was great fun. When it came to the real deal this year, everything became a blur. Topic tests every week (almost), assessments thrown in every direction and constant quizzing in Chemistry. I don't really have much to say, nor any regrets I have for this year, but the fact that I should have studied sooner. HAHA Subject-wise, I dropped Visual Arts and I do regret it. It was one of those subjects that stay with you for a long time because of the environment and I could have never asked for a better teacher.

Subject-wise, I did year 8 commerce and Painting and Drawing, Visual Arts and Music. I dropped all of them for theory-based subjects. Wise choice? I'm not so sure. But I do miss it, and I miss drawing. Also, throughout high school, I've become part of perhaps, the most secure group I've ever come across. This is a biased point of view, so take it lightly. However, I do believe that our group is the strongest, and I love my best friends from the very bottom my heart. You all make my day wonderful and I cannot ever ask for better people. I love you all! <3

I'm rushing this because I'm hungry and I have to eat dinner, but the last paragraph is from the very pits of my heart :)

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