churn

I will save the blogging until after the HSC, and even then, I doubt I'll start blogging substantial chunks of life.

I can't churn out anything English-y. At all. IS THIS WHAT DROPPING EXTENSION 1 DOES TO YOU?! FML, IF I HAD KNOWN, I WOULD'VE KEPT IT FHAJKFHDSALKFHASKLHFAKFHSAFKHAS. Words cannot express my frustration that I feel my studying is leading me to nowhere. My two theory subjects, English and Business, will slaughter my ATAR within the split second I walk into that examination room. I feel that I can't produce anything worth reading for Paper 1, and even more so for Paper 2 because of my lack of grounded knowledge.

FARRRRRAFHSDJFKHASDKLFHSADKLFHSA.

I'm seriously panicking. I've been studying for hours, and I only have 4 subjects. FOUR SUBJECTS. PEOPLE DO 6 SUBJECTS AND THEY'RE COPING.

Lord, what have I reduced myself to.

Okay I'm going to hand write some short-answers and hope to the Lord that they answer their respective questions. FML.

tutor v.r43824284392428

I really don't want to go to tutor today. I feel like even though I've tried to do 3 past papers, they're all partial and not... completed. Which means the same thing LOL. We're doing revision anyway, and I suppose it's good to go, but I'm getting so tired of doing everything over and over again... Is anyone else feeling this way, or am I just getting totally bogged down by work and totally demotivated from my epic failure in my Business Studies exam.

Woe is me.

And when it comes to my notes, I realised I've become too verbose. It's just Physics LOL.

einstein

I feel that Physics contains more history than it does on calculations LOL. Is it wrong of me to say this? Because right now, I'm just reading about Einstein and Planck and trying to fill in my last dotpoint, and all I see is "nationalism" and "moral imperatives" and "Nazis". Apologies if I've offended any of you historians out there, but I chose Physics as a subject which pertained solely to science.

:( I'm so tired of seeing words already, and to think, my holidays are going down the drain like this...

limit

I am at my limit for studying now LMFAO I haven't felt this filled to the brim with information in... forever. I don't think it's a good feeling, because I feel like I'm just going to develop so many of my ideas tomorrow and hopefully my fudging in the actual business paper will pull me through. I also typed a few notes for English... which I will print and study tomorrow. And I will study for maths because my studying for that exam has been the choppiest ever.

IT NEVER FEELS LIKE IT'S ENOUGH *SIGH* :(

maths assignment

Omg, I actually don't know if it was an assignment or not. Donovan tried sending it to me but I couldn't open it... So I checked studywiz and found a document titled exactly that and I was like, oh, okay, what's this? IS OUR TEACHER SERIOUSLY EXPECTING US TO SEND IT BACK TO MARK!? LMFAO I never knew he was this technologically savvy... If that's a way to put it. Phrasing was a bit awkward there. MUST FINISH LAST 2 DOT POINTS FOR BUSINESS UGHHHH I'M SO SICK OF OPERATIONS. I don't enjoy this topic because there are no numbers :( Woes of a math student HAHA

So yeah, gotta finish studying this within 20 minutes and then move onto doing that... assignment. I'll start English notes tomorrow or something. My subjects are everywhere lately LOL JUST THREE MORE TO GO. JUST THREE MORE *CRIES A RIVER*

canon

FHJAKHSDLFHAFAFHDLK AFTER SITTING IN THE SAME SPOT FOR AN HOUR, I REALISED WHERE MY PRINTING WENT WRONG. THE REASON WHY IT WAS SO LIGHT WAS BECAUSE MY UNCLE'S INK CARTRIDGE DRIED OUT :@

What a waste of paper used for testing :( I'm printing Business notes as we speak LMFAO

generator

fhajkfhalkfhakfalfa.

I FEEL SO ILLITERATE WHEN I'M WRITING MY PHYSICS REPORT. Must finish by tonight, or at least, by tomorrow afternoon. I hate dragging on pieces of writing. I either finish it within a few short hours, or I leave it there to rot on my desktop.

I have tutor tonight, and I'm so wiped out. I think I'll start printing notes for Business by... tomorrow?

There's so much to do, and I think it's finally starting to hit me that this is my HSC year. A little late, I know.

Whoever said this year would be the most memorable is right - however, it's also the year that everyone puts in their all.

SO MUCH EFFORT *WHINES*.

i'm living a nightmare

Suddenly, I came to an epiphany (epiphANNIE would've been a good jersey name, like my current one). I realised that maths has totally changed since year 7; not in the level of difficulty, but its transition from numbers to letters. Letters belong in English. So technically, I'm doing English in a more logical way. In any case, Mechanics is doing my head in because I'm so tired right now and I'm not feeling fine and dandy as I appear to be anymore.

I feel so drained and I feel like I should be panicking because exams are so close.

Sometimes I feel so sad, for no apparent reason.

Well, productivity has been moderate today. Finished section 3 of M&G notes for Physics and finished English homework with Jura before 12PM. And then I showered. And now I have another 2 questions before I finish my mechanics revision.

Then I'll do Conics notes. And then I'll probably revise for the maths exam at the end of this week.

Sigh.

i rehearsed this moment so many times in my head

PRODUCTIVITY AT ITS HIGHEST. Nah, I'm joking, but I am being productive to an extent. I just got distracted by the smell of my lip balm, it smells so nice HAHA

I will now continue with my projectile motion questions that I left for... 2 days now? And then start on my Conics notes and then actually go and make some Royal Umbrella noodles. I really like these noodles, because they remind me of camp and how us girls would sit in our cabins and eat them, and just talk in general. I love my girls. Always. <3

Anyway, yeah, I gotta get on with work!

bugger

I just read Lyanna's post on the 2u exam. Which I almost, almost forgot about. I did a solid one and a half hours of sleeping, and then trying to do UMAT (which I failed to concentrate on) and now I'm about to go and study my arse off for tomorrow's assessment. I don't think I'm going to get very far because I started this late.

Ugh, I feel so... inadequate.

And plus my jaw's still hurting because the tooth-holes are closing up and it's pulling back my other teeth.

Woe is me.

FAR OUT

fakjhkalhfak.

I just found out that I don't have a hard copy of my Motors and Generators notes.

And I lost the electronic copy in my hard drive format.

fhdkahflahfhfl

STARTING FROM SCRATCH AGAIN. THIS IS NOT THE RIGHT TIME.

oversleeping

FAJKFHASDLFHASDLFKSADHFAFK!

I don't like it when I take a short (planned) nap. Because then after the alarm rings, I 'stop' it and then I just close my eyes and sleep again. I just woke up from a one hour and fifteen minute nap... :( I can't TAKE THISFHAJDKHFAKFHSAKFAL. IT CUT MY STUDY TIME SO BADLY. Okay, I'm going off to do some stuff *sigh* LOL Just another seven pages to type up for Business and I'm done with retyping my lost notes.

And then I have Physics.

Speaking of which, for my ranks, I feel that I'm doing 'okay' but not... there yet. I will try harder, because this second semester is all I have left in order to succeed.

black and white

Donovan, I know you're going to laugh at the title and say something racist LMFAO HAHA. But yeah, it's a song, so don't get any ideas about me admitting I'm dark.

I can't sleep. I've been awake since an hour ago (3:42AM) and I have done nothing but lie in bed and thinking about the future. Of failure. *CRIESSSSS* But yeah, it took me 45 minutes to drag myself out of the bed to do some solid projectile study after I tried calling Donovan at an ungodly hour LOL. He's such a heavy sleeper, it puts my sleeping nature to shame. Seriously. At camp, I didn't even know my friends painted my toe nails until they pointed them out the next day HAHA.

I think not sleeping enough will take a very, very big toll on me today. And tomorrow. And Friday. I think on Friday my family and I are going out to eat dinner to celebrate my end of exams (yay!). I seriously, sincerely hope I did well... or at least pass for Business. I cannot care less for English right now.

Okay, I'm going to continue cramming in more work.

Ciao!

practicals

For the HSC, are we supposed to know our pracs back to front as well? o_o Because holy crap, if that's the case, there's going to be so much to remember and understand. DOOOOOOMED. Anyway, I'm going to go off and mentally prepare for Maths now. Goodbye! I'll study more after tutor/church.

nightmares

This has got to be one of the worst nightmares for a year 12 student.

In my dream I failed to complete one of my Business Studies extended responses. And everyone knows how low Business Studies scales.

I don't think I need to say anymore.

I'm still quite shaken.

I will start doing my Physics notes at a faster rate now. I'm so afraid of what might happen.

hopeless

I feel this great need to die in a hole. I don't feel great, I feel so disappointed and I expected a lot better after my revision over circle geometry. Those theorems were useless to me (honestly) and I can now say that my score will land within the 80s-90s - that is, give or take. I believe I have sustained a seven-mark loss, (of course 3-4 marks leeway) and at this rate, I don't think I'll be able to get into the Extension 2 class. The only reason why I wanted to do it in the first place is to drop Chemistry and Extension English, and yes, I do enjoy maths. But the exam today seemed almost unreal and I think I've just been overshadowed by my previous mark. Or perhaps due to this shitty day, I have caused my downfall.

I think after realising I used up my 2mm of remaining correction tape left, that everything went down hill from there. I feel really, really insecure without my correction tape, and without it, I will need to resort to liquid paper (LOL I hate liquid paper). So for every question, I would leave space to fill it in, and I'm not even sure right now, that I've filled everything in. I hate liquid paper and I hope it burns.

LOL BLOODY HELL. NOW MY RANK WILL DROP. I AM SO ANGRY WITH MYSELF. I don't care if my ranks drop for anything else right now, I just can't afford to have Maths being down like that. fbsadfakj Well, here's something I want to share with you. Dong Ho's cute LOL.





LOL Dong Ho's face when he puts his hand on his chest <3 And Jung Juri's hilarious LOL I feel so detached right now. fhkajhfakl Some orange juice and Physics study will hopefully get me out of this. Hopefully. One more exam to go.

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Dong Ho LOL <3 I've always favoured his blonde hair, but he looks adorable in anything :3

I only have 2 exams left, so that's pretty good! Extension Maths and Physics left, so after it hits 4:30PM, I'm going to go and continue study my theorems and do past papers before I revise 2 topics for Physics. Yes, I'll hopefully revise 2 topics for Physics. So I'll just dot point my activities that occurred after the actual exam LOL

• Walked to the station with Garry, Steph and Tanya
• Took the train to Cabramatta
• Garry left, we saw Gekleng
• Asked her to join us at the Korean BBQ place (ANNIE, YOU MISSED DBSK D:)
• Ate tonnes, had fun :D
• Went to the library and met Tanya's friend
• Studied a bit more, distracted even more
• Went home with Stephanie and Andrew
• Got home

And that's pretty much it :D Okay, I'll have a 3 minute break and start studying. BYEEEE!

money, love, fashion, fame and all that's in between

Omg, Eli and Dongho <3 LOL

WELL, 4/7 EXAMS COMPLETED. I can honestly say out of all of them, I would say I'd be most confident for Business Studies. Even though I feel like I've failed Chemistry, it's okay. I'm dropping it (LOL AGAIN, I SHALL REITERATE!) Thoughts that have been through my mind the past two days:

• I DON'T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOOOOOOOL
• Introvert, extrovert, doesn't matter...
• So... enthalpy change is how much heat is released?
• I'm so hungry
• I'm so so hungry

And yeah. I'm pretty "satisfied" with my Extension English essay, but maybe that's because of the length of the actual thing. 5 pages and a bit, anyone? Advanced English was horrible, though. I'm just happy it's over. Now, there's just 2u maths, 3u maths and Physics left before I jump into my bed and die. Or before I start doing proper driving lessons... I'VE PUT IT OFF FOR TOO LONG! Here's a spam of U-Kiss images. Credits go to the respective owners (inclusive of Google Images LOL)

Oh Eli LOL <3

hfahfalkj

I feel extremely unprepared for Business. I gave up entirely on Chemistry as well. I think this failure will be even greater than yesterday's English papers.

on the floor

TWO DOWN, FIVE TO GO. I got this... hopefully. Main concerns for tonight: Chemistry and Business. Then no stress after that, I suppose. Physics is important too. Today, during the English exam, my Physics teacher asked me if I've started studying and I, without thinking, said "of course not *chortle*". He proceeded to give me the surprised and offended face and asked me why there were only two guys in our Extension class. And yeah, had a very short-lived chat and then went home! :D

I'm so tired.