maths v.0urio274893

I didn't end up studying properly. Argh, imminent failure.

I don't like it when people assume that I always do well. It's like, they're not giving me permission to fail or something lol.

so

I already handed my jersey nick and receipt in. I asked Nita if I could add any changes to it afterward and she said yes, so thanks! :D

I have one question - how do you even study for maths LOL... I get that practice makes perfect, but really, I don't know how to do it o_o. I suppose our lesson today in maths kinda paid off :D In any case, I needa be off. I finished an entire dot point today for business! :D I don't know if my notes are extremely comprehensive or if they're just full of bluff. Either way, that should have implied that my notes are extremely long. HAHA

Anyway, I'm going off now. Ciao!

i just realised

How common the Physics-Chem combination is amongst most students and their cohorts.

I feel so behind with everything. I'm going to finish writing notes for enterprise agreements and other contracts before studying maths. My maths teacher wants us to have a topic test on Polynomials after the 3u exam. LOL Stuff you, I hope we can do that like... in week 10 or something. I now 'slightly' regret moving our date to next term because we have so much to study for. Now that I think about it, if we had the assessment, I doubt we'd even have the Polynomials exam that close to the 4u exam.

The woes of a student.

Major FML right now. I don't think I'm going to study intensely for English. Sadly, it does count to our HSC... but Physics did too. And I didn't prepare properly for it. I don't think any Physics students did HAHA. GARGH, I'M WASTING TIME. GOODBYE!

business

I FOUND 4 ARTICLES! Well, I think. I'm really secure with my separation one, but not so sure with my other ones because they only have a paragraph on what each process is. I'm beyond tired right now.

I have decided. I must do well.

No seriously LOL.

I don't know if there's any Physics homework... I'll do that during free period HAHA

partying, partying, YEAH!

SIR CANCELLED HALF (YES HALF) OUR TUTOR LESSON. SO NO 4U TUTOR TODAY. FHAKSFHADJKFHALJKFHAL. Life is so good at the moment. So, so good. Favourite tutor teacher :') It's weird how I jump for joy when he cancels our lesson, and he becomes my favourite teacher LOL. Anyway, back to the point. I am recovering from an intense fever/food poisoning (I believe) and am now finishing my 3u homework. I am exhausted, but nevertheless happy. XUAN'S COMING OVER IN 2.5 HOURS!

I need to continue with business and study hard. MUST DO WELL FOR HSC AND UMAT. MUST MUST MUST.

Oh, and Sir can play tennis again tomorrow LOL

oh that's alright

Don't tell me I don't study. Don't tell me I don't help out.

Don't tell me I'm not enough.

STEPH!

Steph, you don't need to save those chocolates for me. Thank you though :D I hope you see this too HAHA

teezles

I'll keep HUYNHer :D Thank you to your friend! :) I still think Fruit LUUps is cute, but LUUminous sounds good from your list :D

PHYSICS

FAR OUT. I'VE BEEN DOING THIS KEPLER'S THIRD LAW SHEET FOR PROBABLY AN HOUR NOW. IT'S TAKING TOO LONG HFKAJHFAJKLHFAKJL.

severus snape, awowowow

YOU HAVE TO WATCH THIS. CREDITS TO JURA WHO LINKED ME HAHFAHDSKJFAHKJFHAL.

Cynthia, this was what I was talking about during free period HAHFKAJHSAJKFHAKFHA

SEVERUS SNAPE, AWOWOWOWOWOW!

it started so fast

That's nice. I mean, I did just pass my Physics quiz. So I told my mum about it, feeling light-hearted because I knew I needed to up my game. A lot. Then she asked who got full marks (no surprise here) and I told her. So rather than nodding and leaving the matter there, she decided to slice me.

"You're beginning to fail in all other areas except for Maths."

I tried to reason with her that it was entirely sprung on us. "You should have always been prepared. Like I said, you're neglecting Physics". "If you keep going on like this, you won't be able to be consistent for the HSC".

And she proceeded to compare me to the person who came first for the little pop quiz in my class and asked if she did maths with me. My mum then said that "since she's consistent for Physics, she'll slowly be ready for maths. How will you deal with it?"

And that was the last straw. I broke down fhuahfkjahfa. Embarrassing? Yes. I honestly contemplated on walking home or to Cabramatta library myself while I was on the car.

She then noticed I was crying and said "pretend I never said anything".

LOL. Is that it? As much as I love you mum, never, ever insult my school work/school effort. NEVER.

acceptance

I love Acceptance. So much. hfkjahfkahfkahfkajhfkjahfakjfhnakj. Acceptance.

spring rolls

So I got my Extension 1 Maths notification today. I have never been bombarded with such ridiculousness in my life. I honestly thought we'd only be examined on what we've learned so far for maths, but I guess not considering the full-on nature of their assessment notification. I MEAN, REALLY? 9 TOPICS, REALLY?! I cannot fathom the craziness of this.

Ugh. Many, many ughs.

Okay bye. I need to immerse myself in my maths exercises and finish my revision paper for tomorrow. Yes, it's for maths, if you're curious. But then again, it should be automatic that I only complain about maths. And on rare occasions, Business and Physics and English. TA TA FOR NOW!

if those lips aren't speaking my name

So wiped out. Lamrock called me before to ask where to buy the Australian Financial Review (which I too, bought after school ended), and I told her I bought it at the Newsagents. She panicked and asked if they sold it at Woolies, but I wasn't sure D: SORRY LAMROCK <3 :( If you can't find it, I'll photocopy the article for you too! :D Text me if you want me to photocopy it for you :) That is, if you read this. If not, I'll ask you tomorrow morning :)

I also bought the Daily Telegraph and the Sydney Morning Herald, and I'm probably going back to the Newsagents on Wednesday/Friday. I'm so sick and tired of hunting for news articles. I'm beginning to dislike Business Studies more and more now.

WELL, TIME TO FINISH MY HOMEWORK. Oh yeah, for maths, we got 4 textbooks today. I re-covered two of them (the Fitzpatrick one) and they look better :) Except for the 2 unit one. It was yellow with so much black stuff on it. Will the school bother with buying new textbooks...? I'm also planning to cover my Cambridge 4u one as well. fhajkfhakjha my textbooks. They're all ugly. Zzz...

Oh well. Life goes on. SO YEAH, ANNIE LAM, MESSAGE ME IF YOU CAN'T FIND THE ARTICLE. I have the AFR, so I can photocopy it for you too :D

piano 101

So I've officially ended my lessons (again). I will continue to practice, just not under the pressure I've been under for the past year. Hopefully I'll be able to maintain a spot at that academy (more like a convent, but academy nonetheless) in 2013. Yes, I'll be doing my AMEB exam again in a year's time. Or two. I actually don't know... But I do know that I want to do really well for my HSC and UMAT.

OKAY BYE. :D I'm off to do more Physics notes :) and then, after that, Business. I really should look at my outline as well...

if i throw you

I'm giving up on tutor homework. I'm beyond exhausted, I've finished my four unit homework, and most of my three unit. I DESERVE ICE CREAM. But I'm too lazy to eat. Yes, there's such a case when I'm actually lazy. I actually... don't know the purpose of going to piano lessons today, considering the fact that I actually didn't do my exam and I'm planning to quit for another year. I feel so lazy...

I'm planning to finish another 2 syllabus dot points for Physics before carrying on and kinda do some piano practice. I've been too lenient with myself this week. Ugh, Year 12 is honestly such a drag. Okay. Goodbye for now. I'll hunt for some newspaper articles like... when I get the time. I'M SO FUCKING LAZY/UNMOTIVATED. I honestly don't want to fail, and maybe that's why I'm procrastinating. *CREDITS TO YEAR 11 STUDY SKILLS BOOKLET WE GOT DURING CAMP. Yes, I read that green booklet. I ended up with 2. Anyone want theirs back?

GARGH. MUST. FORCE SELF TO DO WORK. MUST MUST MUST. I have one more exercise for Complex Numbers left and I am free from that horrible booklet. I hate booklets. Sometimes, I don't even know where the answers are in those booklets :( Apparently we're getting 4 textbooks. Absolutely ridiculous LOL I don't like carrying extra baggage to school.

OKAY BYE. WASTING TIME. Blogging for me will become a rarity during the next few weeks due to exams. Especially math ones. Three of them.

any itch

HAHAHA I like that one, Cynthia!

I feel like I've been accomplishing nothing this past week. Honestly, I don't even think I'm doing that well in maths anymore. I feel like I need to man the fuck up and move forward. Which reminds me, I have a whole bunch of books to read over the holidays (Bronze Horseman, as recommended by my English teacher, and the Book Thief). I realised that the books she's recommended have been reviewed by Lyanna HAHA! :O Her reviews have influenced me to go hunt for Anna Dressed in Blood. I suppose English isn't too good or too bad now. I'm just really tired of reading texts in class about the same event. No offence intended to the victims, but honestly, you'd get tired of rereading your own phrases. History. Memory. Collective memory.

Maths, I can't say that I'm doing well. I'm just doing maths casually. I think I should man up and up my game. Operation: DO ONE HOUR OF CONDENSED STUDYING OF MATHEMATICS PER NIGHT. Business, I don't really care... Well, I do, but my teacher's a bit fhajfha. She's not a bad person, but she's just not right for teaching our class? Especially how uproarious we normally are. Physics... HAHA I LOVE PHYSICS AS A WHOLE. However, the idea of homework just puts me off. But what happened today was hilarious. Quote: "SHAME ON YOU! SHAME ON YOUR FAMILY!" Says my Physics teacher, who, mind you, loves to pick on our Theresa. Oh, and this all stemmed from not doing our homework. And laughing while we got told off. Rebellious? Nay.

Ugh, okay. Back to intense 4u studying for tomorrow's topic test. That doesn't count. I think doing well is a thing I want to do in order to keep m academic esteem up. If I don't try, if I don't acquire satisfying results for myself, I'll feel close to a failure. Note, I did say myself.

HUYNHer & LUUzer

My goodness.

I love my besties so much :) <3

I came on just to say that. I'm beginning to plan Christmas presents for my family, because I honestly don't have the discreetness to buy the presents. Does anyone want to come shopping with me? :D Of course, this'll only happen after exams :D

nom nom

I am falling behind work. A lot. I realised I'm only up to 2.4 for Complex Numbers, and the exam's this Friday and fahjfkahflaha. I don't think I'll be going to the textbook sale. I'm trying to save up, and I already have textbooks... I'm looking into that Terry Lee textbook though. But I'll buy it outside, because I like new books and I tend to write side notes when I study... LOL

MUST. ADVANCE FORTH. IN ACADEMIC STUDIES.

B2ST + 200TH POST

Much like Cynthia's Taemin post, I will dedicate this blog entry to B2ST. Here's a picture of my boys. Or two. Or ten million.

In any case, why did I ever stray from B2ST? I don't know who my bias is anymore, because I love them all. Sometimes a little more love for one than another, but the love ebbs about evenly and they're all on equal grounds.  NO ONE CAN BEAT THEM, NO ONE. *SCREAMS* I can't believe I can place any other boyband before you guys fhkjahfkadhfa. Seriously, why. WHY. I mean, Infinite is great, but I think B2ST will always be in my heart. Always. The time spent studying and away from the internet hasn't done our one-sided relationship (spazzing) any good, because I started to look more into other bands. I feel as though I've betrayed you (so dramatic, I admit). Even though I might not be the outwardly spastic fan to the extent where I'd faint, I will still love B2ST. NO MATTER WHAT. I think it's true that, you don't know what you have until it's gone. Much like the time I had searching up B2ST. When I left you boys aside, I was nonchalant. ARGH, MY HEART ACHES. MUST GO AND KEEP LOOKING AT PICTURES OF YOU. HFAKJHFALKFHA All in all, I don't know why I even left B2ST. Did I even leave though? Or did I just pack those spastic feelings of mine in a small chest within my heart and save them until after the HSC (at least, that's what I planned, anyway)? Perhaps the latter. I love B2ST so much :( GARGH, MY BOYS.HFJKAHFAKJLH. <3333333333333333333333333333

Anyway, I gotta tell you something. Best friends share the same line of thought right? Well, most of the time anyway :D Well I told Teezles my pun and omg, she thought of the same one as well HFKJAHFJAKHFAKL BFFLS! I sound like a little girl HBAHAH But I love her :D <33333333333 (even more than B2ST - yes, even more than B2ST)

I feel so fhakjfhalk after that probability exam. Stupid stupid, I lost 4 marks or so. Ugh... ANYWAY :D BYEEE! Oh yeah, my internet's back. But I'm going to minimise my internet surfing to perhaps an hour per day.

And mum, I love you. Happy birthday. I love you so much, more than you think I do. I can't thank the Lord for a better mother - then again, I can't think of having any other mother. I love you so, so much. I will never be embarrassed of you, I will always hold your hand so then I'll never lose you. :D

There is so much love in this post, seriously. HAHHAHA :D

THANK YOU EVERYONE

But I actually didn't do my piano exam. I had to call in sick because my thumb was slightly dislocated during my restless sleep. True story. So I went to my doctor and he just pushed it back and said that it was okay not to have anything placed on it. And since it's my left hand, I probably won't use it a lot anyway. I'm so fhkjadfhadklhfa about using up that $90.00 for a piano exam that I didn't take. STUPIDNFSDHFJDKAHFAKL. Argh. I panicked for an entire week to get a stuffed up thumb.

On a brighter note, I started writing my notes for Physics and Business Studies. MOTIVATION TRANSFERRED: SUCCESS. It feels weird having my thumb elevated from the keyboard (if that made any sense at all). I have tutor today. Yesterday it was cancelled (COOKIE TO CYNTHIA FOR HAVING THE KPOP CONCERT). I think Teezles went to the concert as well :D OH YEAH, TANYA, REMIND ME TO TELL YOU MY NEXT PUN FOR YOUR JERSEY. I keep forgetting to tell you. I hope no one told you yet :( Because I kinda spent long hard minutes trying to think of it HAHA

context

I am so tired of hearing this word. I'm almost done with my English homework. Right now, English has been my last priority (sadly, it doesn't seem like it because I was trying to keep up with the workload), and I guess I'm on top of it. I think piano practice wasn't as productive today because I still have 2 pages left to learn (DAMMIT. LESS THAN A WEEK LEFT NOW. FML FMLFMLFMLFMSADLFNDSAFKJAHFKJLA).

ARGH, I AM SO FRUSTRATED. I feel like I'm going through a monthly female phrase when really, I'm not.

tired

LOL. SADNESS PUSHED BACK. I don't know whether it's the strong (weak, actually) will I have for maintaining my happiness on the outside, or maybe it's a defence mechanism for stress and pessimism during exam periods.

P.S. CYNTHIA, ONCE YOU LEFT, METWALLY MOVED OUR MATHS LESSONS TO WHEN YOU HAVE EXTENSION 1 ENGLISH. *CRIES* We miss you in class, though :( <3 And I honestly think we can't finish it by tomorrow, at the rate we're going HAHAHA

here, have a clap

I feel so frustrated with myself lately. It's not the normal frustration either. I'm afraid that I might break or mentally/emotionally implode due to the supposed 'stress' I currently am under. Am I stressed? I'm not quite sure anymore. I don't know what to do anymore. I was planning to call Xuan after my piano exam for dinner out after tutor on the coming Sunday after 7:30PM, but it seems the plans have been cancelled before they were even made. I really do miss him. I wonder how my cousin's been doing, 'tis all.

maths (version 1548646846)

Well, I finished my English essay. BULLDOZED THROUGH 1200 WORDS WITHIN 1-2 NIGHTS, HELL YEAH! I don't really care about the mark I get at this stage, because there are bigger things to worry about. Like the piano exam. And the practical exam. LOL, eternally screwed.

So... I'm not going to do the probability sheet because I've been discouraged enough. I mean, that first question (3 part 1) was 52, and I kept getting 34. Grr. But anyway, I'll spend the next hour finishing school maths homework, probably to exercise 2.4 for Complex Numbers and finish Challenge Exercise for Integration. SO MUCH MATHSSSS! But never the less, it's tolerable :)

OKAY BYE.

children

Okay, I like children. That may come off as open-paedophilia, but I don't mean it like that. I think they're tolerable, and even cute at times. But I have to agree with Lyanna - I don't think I'll be able to handle being a primary school teacher either. I might have some kind of mental break down due to the constant reminder of the childhood I've long since grown out of. I think it's because of the bratty side of my sister that I see probably every second hour of the day. Excluding sleeping times, because everyone knows I sleep like a log. Really, like a log. A moving one. That had got its toenails painted discreetly during its slumber on the second night of camp. Yes, that type of log.

Anyway, back to the point. I, too, dislike it when children underestimate the actual difficulty of the years to come. I'm actually too tired to continue this post and fight for what I believe in (sounded really over the top, there HAHA), so I'll just finish off my essay (900 WORDS NOW, AND COUNTING). Ta ta for now!

do you still think of me

Such a sad title. I'm currently emotionally switched off when it comes to anything beyond the boundaries of friendship right now HAHA. In saying this, I think I've succeeded in pulling my previous grades up. Hopefully it'll last until the HSC, and perhaps into university. But anyway, I came on to say that I finished my integration homework :D I suppose it wasn't that bad... but I still have probability to do. Which I'll do later. I'll go and shower now, since I postponed my beautiful period of cleansing for 3 hours. Gross LOL...

Tutor homework > showering, I suppose :( NOT THAT I DO THAT ALL THE TIME. It's just, it's going to be a hectic week this week. Oh yeah, I got my introduction for my essay out of the way.

GARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGH. Major sigh and stab to musical ability when I know that I have the potential to get a C. Not a B, a C.

Good going, Annie.

zzz

So... I stood at school waiting for probably 35-40 minutes. Alone. I actually thought of walking home, but the idea of local gangs kinda frightened me. When I started down the street (almost to the park), my aunty's car came. I couldn't express how angry I was to even begin with. I could've been at home, finishing what was left of my 4u homework before fully immersing myself in music, but no, I was stuck there doing nothing. Would it have occurred to my aunty, to check the time, seeing as though my sister's bus was late? She could have called me/my mum to tell, but no, my sister always comes first. I'm not complaining that she always comes first (because it'd be useless and I already know that if I did, I'd have to suck it up anyway - lol, big sister role), but it would be nice to have some kind of notification, rather than the state of mind that "oh, Annie will continually wait there until forever later. So why don't we all just take our time?"

Sometimes, I really feel like I'm an easy person to manipulate into saying "yes". Oh yeah, we also got our lamb a red Russell bag :D She's so cute HAHA <33333 I seriously love my group :') I got my business studies textbook as well. It looks alright, and the content is quite comprehensive. I like it, better than our other textbook :D I'm extremely tired, and I should take a look at my Physics notification sheet. I'll be off now, goodbye!

but still i find myself asking

I curse every bit of homework I have the very pits of Hell. Like my Business homework. I really don't feel like doing it, despite how much I like our teacher. He's so dry, reminds me of my tutor teacher. Just... not as dry. And he knows my name (as well as Lamrock's, because we share the same name), so he said "Annie! ... I know there are two of you." And we just stare at him. Blankly. I have tutor homework to get through, so I'll hopefully get through the majority today and just... give up entirely on life.

No, I'm joking. I really can't wait until my piano exam is over - so bloody expensive and worthless if I get a C. Which, is perhaps impossible, because I'm certainly going to get a D.

LOLLLLLLLLL HFJKAHFKJAHFJAKL I HAVE ONE PIECE THAT ISN'T EVEN DONE YET AND MY GENERAL KNOWLEDGE IS FUCKED AND HFADHFAKHFALK. GOODBYE LIFE.

sebastian michaelis

I am in love with the anime/manga Kuroshitsuji (roughly translating to Black Butler). I love the butler so much. LOL He's so classy, to the extent where it makes me squeal like a sick fangirl. It's pathetic, really, and the butler even seduces the women in the drama. He's actually a demon, so that kinda explains why LOL! Here's a picture:

Ugh, he's so charismatic. So so classy. <3 He reminds me of Ren from Skip-Beat, but even more classy and cold. Because he's a demon.

DAMMIT ALL. I TRY ESCAPING FROM ROMANTICISM, AND IT COMES BACK TO ME IN MY MUSIC THEORY. WHY. WHY. WHY.

Why.

lamrock

You are seventeen. Needless to say, you are one of my best friends, and I don't think I can fully articulate how happy I am to know that you are one of the most important people to me. Our group, without you, will never be the same. I know you adore those Fantastic crackers I brought to camp, and I know you love cheese too ;) Your way of saying 'noodles' is hilarious, and one of a kind HAHA I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH LAMROCK, VERY VERY MUCH <3 Seventeen in reality, but seven at heart :) <33333333333

I loved lunch today. My lovely group celebrated Lamrock's birthday with a cheese cake (HAHA CHEESE) and we had a blast :D I love my friends, and I feel that no one can ever come between us. No one.