marginalised

I HAVE A FEW PAGES LEFT FOR MY BUSINESS NOTES. As in, Topic 2 out of 3. HELL TO THE YEAH! I don't think I'll be able to finish Business notes tonight, but hopefully I'll finish it tomorrow. Then I'll finish Physics Topic 3 tomorrow as well and study the shit out of those notes. I'm not doing Chemistry homework because I think it's time to be selective of the homework done.

finished

27 pages of notes for topic 1 - I fixed it up! Now for the remaining 22 pages of Business Management and I am done for tonight. Or I'll go further and finish the topic. This is ridiculous. From here on, once I get home, I am writing notes for every subject day by day. And I already did my essay on The Tyger and Ancient of Days. If the texts are not valid, I cannot care less because I have devoted probably 2.5 hours of my study time to that bloody essay when it doesn't count for anything.

Oh, and before I forget, I had a great time at lunch today. I love my best friends. <3

fml

I told myself I'd get 5 minutes worth of sleep and I ended up sleeping until 5:22. *face desk* I'll finish essay now (within two hours) before I fix up my detailed business notes and yeah. Yeah. Sorry Annie, I couldn't talk to you because I was half awake and I was questioning whether or not I was crazy. Yeah, it happens when I take naps. And then I contemplated life for a while and realised: "LOL, PSSHT, YEAR 11". And I realised the severity of the situation and kinda sulked. Okay, I shall finish essay now :(

empty

Well, Open Day has clearly opened my eyes. I feel like I might fall into the medical path again, despite how much I plan to diverge away from it. I mean, every time i think about Business in university and doing it for the rest of my pitiful life, it seems really, really mundane. In any case, I am aiming for extremely far-fetched marks that probably only James Ruse people will pragmatically obtain, but nevertheless, I am willing to try.

Oh, and one more thing: I FORGOT I HAD AN ESSAY DUE ON TUESDAY. !@#$.

open day

Was fun, simply put. I won't go into details because most of it went by really fast and I probably couldn't remember most of it. Tanya, you can have my midwifery/hospo pamphlet, since the woman just gave Lamrock, Steph and I all one :D I also got you a calendar as well :D And for Panda, I got her a Business pamphlet and a calendar as well! :D Oh, guys, I also bought a pencil case from typo. It's one of those "Keep Calm" ones, and I like it. Because it's black. I was desperate for a pencil case, okay? :(

I feel like I'm conforming with the teenage society, but nevertheless, I love it because it's black and it can fit my calculator. Okay, goodbye :D

ralph lauren

I got my glasses today! -3.50 :'(. My eyes are deteriorating, and at this rate, I'll be legally blind by 18. Tomorrow's the day! :D I can't wait to go :) Two of my best friends won't be able to come, and I was planning to give one of them a great bear hug because I haven't seen her since last Friday :( <3

I'm almost done with tutor homework. I'm quite satisfied about 4unit homework because it actually didn't take as long as the other exercises. But there were still questions that I left out. *chortle* Today was fun, but I really cannot be bothered to say much. I'll blog more soon :)

units

I'll allow five minutes to fill you in about my miserable life and how I never achieve the goals I set out. So I'll dot point today:

• English was spent doing questions (must finish tomorrow - I will chuck an all-night if I can)
• Business was alright - it was satisfying?
• Physics was fun (as always)
• Extension - we were given our assessment notifications. I feel like whatever I'm doing is beginning to slip away from me. I mean, two extended responses in a two hour period - no actual planning can be done aside from studying dot points. Oh, and the "creative writing" piece isn't actually a story, a poem or some other creative piece. It's "something other than an essay".
• Chemistry - I was so hungry at this point, so I lost all energy to do anything.
• Maths - I find maths quite enjoyable. Was walking toward the waiting place with Garry before he realised he forgot his jumper.

That's probably it. Everyone's been thinking about doing 12+ units due to senior science. I didn't think it was possible, but I'm assuming it is now. It feels like I'm taking a gigantic leap and because I'm doing JUST 10 units. I don't intend to touch year 10 science or anything of the like ever again because it was horrible for me and I never want to go back. I would keep extension English, but the assessment notification received today and the details have turned me off. Eternally.

I feel like the quality of my blog posts are deteriorating rapidly. In any case, I think I've said this many times, but I'll be doing:

• English
• Maths
• Physics
• Business Studies

And that's final. No more changes, I've been on this for so long. I hope this term ends soon so I can make a comeback or at least try to incorporate the best study habits I've never been able to put to use. Goodbye now!

physics

(2/4) Job well done. Now to do maths homework and hopefully complete it. I am not going to do Business because it'll take too long. Do it tomorrow morning or something.

Hertzsprung-Russell

I'm still amazed at the name. Anyway, I had a relatively good day today. I got my Chemistry Practical marks back, and I had to ask myself: WHAT ABOUT PHYSICS?! WHY NOT PHYSICS?! That's just how I felt. Anyway, I thought the day was pretty fun. Business was fun today was well - "Legend squared!"

I'm almost done with Topic 2 of Physics, and if I finish it tonight, I'm doing Business. Well, at least I'll try to do Topic 2. I'll also do Maths past papers (NOOOO). Okay, that's all for now. I just need to update. I'm eating dinner in five minutes. I'm off now, goodbye :)

bestie

I miss my bestie. My group of besties wasn't the same without her today :( <3 I love every single one of them! I sound so mushy LOL. Anyway, I finished my English report, yes, and I am now going to properly write up my Chemistry practicals. I shall finish this in ten minutes and then after that do some maths. I feel so unaccomplished today, but hey, I bought a new pair of jeans and got out of the house after a long, long time. Excluding the trip to the optometrist yesterday.

I'll just leave it here. Apologise for the unorganised structure of the blog post, but you'll live. I mean, it can't be that bad. Okay, I'll be off. Goodbye!

fhafkl

I hope this English report goes and dies in a hole, because I'm having literary constipation right now. I'm also hungry.

chemistry

I finished off most of the work sheets. I left out 6 questions or so, 3 of which I couldn't be bothered analysing and answering. I'll do that tomorrow morning or when I get home tonight. I shall go and do some Physics notes and continue cleaning before I start 4u revision at 11. I think I've gotten into the habit of disconnecting my internet when I study now. It shall be a healthy habit.

trouble

I really don't know how to formulate the immensity of what I feel into normal, proper words. One thing though - I'm okay with yesterday. After much thought and slapping myself out of pure stupidity for over-reacting, it was just a joke gone wrong. No hard feelings, and this is a sincere reply. I promise. I think I'm just an easy target.

But on another note, I think my life has been falling apart. Especially when I'm at home.

notes

So far:

• Business (1/3)
• Physics (1/4)
• Chemistry (0/4)
• Maths (0)

I HAVE THIS UNDER CONTROL. I HOPE.

fhdsak

• I need to clean my room
• I need to finish my notes
• I need to do piano
• I need to go shopping
• I need to study
• I need to order new contact lenses
• I need to buy new sweatpants

I feel so emotionally turned off about everything.

staring blankly ahead

I was looking through my music folder(s) and I came across "A Thousand Miles" - it reminded me of White Chicks and then my friends. Oh, we make the best memories :'D *CHUCKS MANY HEARTS*

Today was alright. I did alright in the topic test(s) I suppose - 3u was surprisingly better than 2 unit. Lamrock wasn't here today, so I sat with Phoenix and we did some textbook work. At recess, I walked with Tanya to the toilets and we had a chat, and then I had maths. Lunch was fun, and so was Badminton HAHA (I couldn't serve, and thank you Tanya for putting up with my lack of racket skills)! We drew on Eric's bag, and he said he'd take it to uni. I think this is where we should feel honored HAHA!

Well, I basically lost half my night to doing nothing and I'm going to finish exercise 12.4 before I finish Business Studies and attempt to do Chemistry (the practical). And then I'm doing my business notes and I'm cleaning. That's all for now, goodbye! :D

tired

Really tired, fun afternoon during Physics. The Deputy came around and asked who was dropping what, so I put my name down along with the subject I'd like to drop. I felt like weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I have church at 8, so I'll go through maths homework within 30 minutes (I hope) and do some notes before I leave. And when i come back, I'll continue with my notes.

vectors

I basically left out 3 questions in 2.3 and 5 questions in 2.5. I feel like a rebel.

No, I'm joking. I feel incompetent and unprepared to go to tutor. Hopefully sir doesn't lecture us or anything, because I honestly cannot come early for help... LOL And also, I hope we're starting new 3u and 4u topics, I'm so sick of parametrics and complex numbers. Because they're really complex.

Anyway, I'm off. I need to get out of the house in... 5 minutes. So 3 minutes for studying, a minute for preparation and a minute for going to the car.

love like woe

4u is driving me up the wall. I've been sitting here for an hour trying to go through solutions in my head and all I could come up with was: "it just is". As in my answer to proving questions would be "it just is". Ridiculous, I don't even know what the hell I'm doing anymore. I'll leave 2.3 there and I'll probably go onto 2.5 or something. I'll do it later. I am pissed beyond human comprehension.

better yet

Go live at your own house.

llamas

So, I've finished my first topic for Business.

If I had done my notes in a single-spaced manner, there wouldn't be 29 pages there. But in any case, I like my double spacing and I can read it like that. The major blue bits are tables of information just for reference. I doubt I'll be studying those, but hey,  it's back up. After tutor homework later, I'll be doing my Physics notes and I'll probably finish The World Communicates before doing anything else.

I felt like waltzing right out of my front door yesterday. I don't think Blogspot can handle my extreme complaints and hardships (is it even?) that concern family, so I'll just leave it as it is. My dad invited me to dine out with his friends and my mum and sister. I rejected it (and felt so guilty afterward) because I had tutor at night and I need to study for 4 unit. Yes, it as an honest rejection, and no, I did not use tutor as an excuse. Like I said, it was honest. I love my dad, a lot, more than anything, but alcohol does so many things to him.

I finished off Business homework and maths homework - now that's left would be making extensive, comprehensive notes on Business, Physics and Chemistry (I don't think I will, but I'll try) before attempting to ace my exams. I shall devote one maths paper per night to study for maths. And English... I'll do that on Monday or something, because this weekend's packed.

cold

So I was talking to my mum just then and telling her about my day. She said "I can't wash the dishes" because she pulled her muscles, so I simply said "Don't worry-" and I was cut off. She repeated "don't worry" in an incredulous tone and went on to lecture and complain about how it's easier said than done. I told her that I hadn't even finished my sentence and she ignored me and I was so sick of not being heard I turned my back on her and walked into my room to finish tutor homework. She yelled at me for being upset at everything - every little thing.

And then she proceeded to tell me about my day. I was so turned off by whatever she said that I just told her "I'll tell you later or something." She then said "Fine, don't tell me". I don't think parents understand the difference between "I'll tell you later" and "I'll never tell you". Heck, I don't even think they realise how pressured some of us feel because of their expectations and their "you-should-have-known-this" attitude. But that's an entirely different issue, and I won't get into that because I still need to finish tutor homework and I'm barely halfway.

if those lips aren't speaking my name

I think this is the aftermath of my complacence concerning my maths exam. I felt so sure of my potential, only to have it broken down and stomped on by the fungal feet of teachers. Not so much the foot fungus, but you get the gist of it, don't you? Well, here's how it went:

• Just passed my Physics practical exam
• Just passed my Business Plan assessment
• Lost a potential 3 marks for my 3 unit Parametrics exam (it was fairly nice as well, but I missed out on a question or a part of it)
• Finding out my timetable for exams - Thank God I have Monday on the next week off.

I shall finish tutor homework at 5 or something. Right now, I'll do my Business notes and what not before doing Maths. I feel hopeless.

english

So today in English we had a substitute. I read Lamrock's post and it got me thinking as well. What next? I'm studying so hard (LOL not really) now, and within the next year, I'll be completing my last round of secondary education before I move onto university. The idea is so daunting, terrifying even. I've never contemplated the meaning of life because I've always taken it as something God gave me. Please don't be turned off when I start talking about Catholicism LOL.

Anyway, I was thinking: after high school, I'll have three months break. Within those 3 months, I'm getting everything together, finishing my music theory, musicianship, and practical grade(s). I then plan on doing a teaching course for piano and then probably work at the convent I go to on Saturdays for piano. A sister there said out of the $22-25 per hour, I'll be able to get $15 or so. Those nuns are so nice, it makes me feel like there's hope in this world :') During that time, I'll probably be finishing my degree/masters (I don't really know the difference, but if you do, please clarify) and maintaining a career. I'm planning to diverge myself from any medical courses/careers and do a Business degree.

I mean, there are so many doctors in my family - by doctors, I mean those falling under the subset of 'medicine'. My cousin(s) from Vietnam are pharmacists, doctors, surgeons, etc. My niece in England who is apparently finishing year 12 this year, was apparently planning to do a Geography course at Cambridge, but that's beside the point. They're everywhere, over-achievers and I'm me. As plain as it sounds, I don't intend to go through something I don't like. My dad suggested dentistry and I chortled and shook my head. And then I realised he was serious. And then he realised I was too. It's ironic, because his teeth are so bad because of smoking. Hence, my 98.9+ ATAR deal (unlikely I'll achieve it due to the harsh reality of my Physics practical that I 'just' passed)

But I digress. I'll probably settle down... late 20's early 30's? I'm not so sure, and I don't really want to know now. It's probably because that's too far ahead, say 10 years give or take? I can only see myself 2-3 years from now :( Anyway, I shall be off. I need to study hard for my Parametrics topic test tomorrow and do some English and Business questions before my pillow hits my head. Goodnight!

better with the lights off

On Friday, this guy who sat behind Lamrock and I started singing this song (below) and it sounded hilarious. But when I looked it up, it sounded pretty good. Or maybe it was because I haven't heard R&B in so long. Oh yeah, and he and his friends were 'borrowing' extension cords on Friday :S Click here.

I really should start tutor homework, but this parametrics booklet is killing me. I've been at it for hours, but I've also been watching Angel Beats again. The last scene kills me every time :( I only have 38 minutes left before I sleep (I'm sleeping early, now) and I want to get at least 23.5 done. Or close. QUESTION 8 ANYONE? :( I wonder if anyone's started tutor homework yet.

I'm sorry if I'm unresponsive to your whims and 'meaningful' statements. It just doesn't surprise me how much thought you put into articulating it as opposed to how much force you apply. It gets really, really mundane.

formal dress

I. LOVE. THIS. DRESS. I might actually get it for formal, but it's a long way away. Actually, it's in a year's time, but it's still worth looking for a formal dress! :D

So... yeah. That's all for now. I'm going to go eat and then do some work. Goodbye! :D

slaughter

So today, I used the ATAR calculator. I'm satisfied with what I'll be aiming for, and let's just say, a low nineties mark (or even high 80s) will be sufficient for my goal. I was happy, until they came over. Again. So here's the thing, from the beginning:

My dad met this guy online, and they were fast friends. He visited once or twice, and invited my dad (and my family, but I declined so 3/4 of us stayed home LOL) to eat out. And now, they're best friends because of karaoke and his "karaoke room" is next to my study/bedroom. If this keeps up, I might actually spend my time away from my house at the library, or probably out with my cousin Swan (NOTE THE SPELLING), who I haven't seen for ages. It's not likely I'll be doing this, but I'll probably get fed up one way or another.

So they're over again, two days in a row. Their children are barging into my room, and I might need a retractable doorknob so no one can get in when I'm in my room studying. I refuse to eat or watch Masterchef outside if they are still there. They may be nice people, but I don't think they understand the need for privacy and rooms that are locked.

LOL I'll shoot them. And The Man From Nowhere is so hfkajhfakl. It's so action filled that I forgot I was eating for an hour. Seriously. And I lost my appetite after the eye-container rolled out, and when the woman's body was left behind after being organ-harvested. It's a must-watch, but it's a bit disturbing.

omg

Go live at your own house LOL. I really don't like it when I come home from a tiring, life-sapping piano lesson to find a couple and their 3 children at my house. Running amok on my room. Commenting on how messy it is. Even though I closed the door. Who are they? My dad met the husband online and invited them over (oh yeah, since the internet is so trusted).

I don't like it/them because they come over every weekend. Every single one of them.

epoch

I'm sitting in the sun right now, doing work. I woke up around an hour ago, had a shower and what not. I finished that page long Parametrics exercise (YES!) and I left out question 4. I'll figure that one out tomorrow. I have 23.4 left to do and some actual studying for maths. Right now, I'll get onto my Physics and Business notes. I'll do Physics now, since I actually have the slightest clue of what actually goes on. Sadly.

I'll do Chemistry... Next week. It's not my biggest concern, since I know I've done abysmally. But nevertheless, I'm quite happy that I've made up my mind about what I'd like to do for year 12. Everyone says it's risky to go into the HSC with only 10 units. It is, but I see no other choice! Well, I could've made up my mind about Extension English, but I see my imminent downfall in all my other subjects if I keep it. I even bought new folders to shove all my notes in :D

By the end of this term, I'll give my room a great makeover and you'll see the changes. And I'm planning to get a day to day diary, if not another weekly one. And this time, I'll use it. Consistently. Oh, I also forgot to mention: I MADE IT THROUGH EXAM/COMPETITION WEEK! Physics was fhakdfhakj, English was "Wooh, erudite. I don't know what that means.", Maths was "1-10 (Y), 11+ fadjkfhalk and 25+ is a 1 in 999 answer" and Chemistry was alright. Part B was quite... nice. I'm not feeling extremely happy with how I went, but I feel like the practicals and competitions will end here. More so the competitions, though.

Probably it for now. Goodbye! :D

power

OMNIPOTENCE! Disregard the previous word, I just chucked it there because I haven't used it in a long while. I should be doing a truckload for Chemistry (or at least worrying) but after the Australian Maths Competition today - as Othilia describes it to be similar to a lottery - I'm feeling very lax about it. I think it's because I've given up entirely on Chemistry and yeah. Oh, and those last five questions: 1 in 999 chance on getting the answer right HAHA

I think I paid $4.50 (or $5.50) for a Participation award that I could've printed myself, using Word. But it's okay, because tutor is on a break this week - that means:

• Studying
• Fixing practical book
• Revising on Complex numbers and writing notes (I don't normally write notes for maths. It just seems a bit strange to me, but I think it'll be effective)
• Write up notes for Physics, Chemistry (LOL) and Business
• Catch up on piano because my exam is in November (or late October) and I have yet to finish any pieces. Yeah, terrible. BUT THIS IS WHAT YEAR 11 DOES TO ME :(

In saying this, I shall go and hit a few keys before sitting down and revising for Chemistry :)