biting off more than I can chew

I'm a bit skeptical about picking Extension 2 English, as well as Maths. The thing is, I want to do both Extensions so I can minimize the diversity of my workload, which I believe will make it extremely convenient for me. Right now, Physics and Chemistry are becoming a chore. I'm not particularly looking forward to Chemistry, especially with the topic test on Metals coming up. I have no bloody time to study.

And now, I shall welcome 4 hours of math tutor every Sunday. But then again, math tutor is fun HAHA. I'm feeling extremely cold now, so I'll do maths, read for an hour (must speed through Chapters 16-20) and then study for Chemistry. I'll start the Hunchback of Notre-Dame tomorrow.

GOODBYE FOR NOW :D

goals

I have a to do list. I'll share it with you, all the long-term, short-term and medium-urgency goals. :) I really should take out time to customize my layout.

Short-term:

• Finish reading Emma (must be done within a few days, since I've got the Hunchback of Notre Dame to analyse. This may change, however.)
• Study co-ordinate geometry for the maths topic test on Monday
• Revise on both Physics and Chemistry

Medium-urgency:

• Type up some notes for Business Studies.
• Re-do English essay and perfect it
• Drivers Knowledge Test

Long-term:

• It may be common and it might even be impossible, but I'd like a  96+ ATAR.

That last long-term goal seems like an extremely far reach because of English. And that is all :) Oh, and if I get 'round to it, I'll write another story. I miss writing stories, even though after I read them, I cringe because of my language and my imagination (or lack thereof). Goodbye for now :D

don't deny our r-squared pi

I was reading the translation of U-Kiss's 0330, and there's this line where it said: "don't deny our r-squared pi". I still love U-Kiss. Here is where I insert incessant fangirl-ing. Anyway, I'm doing maths homework. Today we started calculus and I think I'm understanding what it is. It's basically finding the gradient of a curve/finding the gradient of a certain point. I think. One or the other. I don't have much homework to do, besides study for maths and tutor homework. I still have five chapters to read, and today we were scolded for 'not' doing our English homework. We did do it, some of us just had extremely sore throats or were insecure about our work. 'Tis all.

I am trying so hard for maths, it's not even funny. LOL.

2 minutes

I have two minutes to write this post, because at exactly 4:30PM, I'm going to start writing out notes to plan out what I'm going to write for my Extension response. Today was extremely cold, fun, and tiring (even though I did not participate in anything at all). I hope your throat is alright, Tanya! :S I ate quite a lot today. I bought a lot of stuff too.

1. Citrus punch regular tea at Tee's Cupcakes ($3.50)
2. Train ticket to Fairfield ($3.20)
3. Pasta from TTL takeaway ($4.00)
4. Sandwiches from canteen ($2.00)
5. Green apple green tea with rainbow jelly ($4.20)

And that is all. Thanks for letting me use your phone, Steph! I'm out of time now. Way, out of time. Be back later!

lightless

I feel so strained with maths, I feel like... I've let myself down and the teachers are basing their recommendations on the surface value - that is, how I appear to act in class. So from tomorrow onwards, Othilia and I will be sitting in front/behind Cynthia and Elyn so we can focus on maths. I will not accept anything below 90%, even if it means doing three hours of logical thinking each day. Seriously.

'Tis all. I still have to finish the ratio exercise for maths (I chortle at the fact that I'm still talking about this subject) before I go to bed. If not, I'll finish it in class. I'm a slow worker. Oh, and I've deactivated my twitter because I was getting too carried away, signing on and off before I go to school and when I come home. It's an addiction, and I'm hoping to quell this steadfast habit.

And I'm relatively proud of my essay. The teacher didn't even write anything. I think I should tweak it again and hand it in for proof reading. And I should start revising for Chemistry, since our Metals topic test is coming up.

Ah life, how you never cease to give me a hard time.

fiction

I love B2ST, but I haven't been listening to their songs for the past few months. I can definitely say, I've missed them. I have so much to do in so little time. Tutor homework is becoming a bit frustrating, and I'm aiming to finish it in 2 hours at an easy pace. I would also like to finish Volume I of Emma tonight and perhaps write that 1 page response for Extension English. Oh, and also Physics and Chemistry homework. I'm beginning to feel a bit worried for Extension English. Will I be able to pull a 95+ mark overall? I mean, English is extremely ambiguous. I know I would like to do Extension 2 maths, as it may round all my units up. So all in all, I'd like to do three subjects, English, Maths and Business Studies. Physics is becoming tedious and depressing, as Chemistry is a surprise in itself.

I've been torn about my selection of subjects for Term 4, since year 11 is coming to an end. We only have one and a half terms left before we continue on  and finish our years of high school, as blunt as it sounds. As silly and impossible (as of now) it sounds, I would like a 96+ ATAR. This will prove to be unachievable due to the contingent plan I have of doing Extension 2 English because it's so open to various meanings :(

I feel so conflicted, but tonight, I need to change the way I study. Seriously. Oh, and I'd also like to get through 2 grades of music theory per year so I can finish my 8 practical grades. Apparently they won't give actually allow you to get your certificate for the completion of grades unless you finish all 8 grades of theory and practical, from what I've heard. Correct me, some one.

Sadly, I realise that all I ever talk about are goals and expectations. I never actually achieve any of this. 'TIS A TIME FOR CHANGE!

bored of studies

I've been going on to the "boredofstudies" website lately, and really, it has inspired me to try harder. In fact, I'm on the website at this very moment. I still have tutor homework to finish, books to read, questions to answer and such, but really, I think this is my well-deserved treat. Just a random thought, but I love Extension English. Best subject for me, ever. I realised, for the past term and a half, my grades have dropped dramatically. I feel that my core subjects (English and Maths) have taken a wrong turn and plummeted. Chemistry, however, has surprised me, due to the lack of effort I put in. I don't deserve the position, at all. I admit.

I must be off, my hot chips and sauce are waiting for me :D

let me take you to rio

I still can't get over the movie Rio. Anyway, today we drew cabin numbers and I'm in cabin #1 with Sally, Jura and Annie! The other cabin is taken by Jenny, Tanya, Theresa and Steph. I hope our cabins are together! Apparently the rotational groups during the day are meant to have 20 people in each, and we've already got 8. I am so hyped for camp, it's been 4 or so years since the year 6 one.

I did some very silly mistakes in my trigonometry exam. Ridiculously simple mistakes. But overall I was satisfied. I should've taken my old maths teacher seriously, when he said "when you do extension 1 mathematics, you will have no life". I only thought he meant social life, but I have come to the conclusion that this umbrella of deprived liveliness stretches out to my mental capacity as well as my physical well-being.

On a sadder note, I'm not doing so well with Advanced English. And if this continues on, I feel a 70 point something ATAR, which is not good at all. Sometimes I feel so hopeless, and it's probably due to the high expectations I hold for myself. I should, as Othilia has suggested, put my results in a table.

Sometimes, I feel like not doing anything at all.

failures

Today started off fine, until Section I for the English exam was returned. I was not at all satisfied with my performance. At all. The mark was ridiculous, and I think the highest in my class was 10/15. I may be wrong, though. I know my Section II will be marked horribly as well, since it was longer and more stressing. I also failed my Physics topic test. By one and a half marks. I feel so incompetent.

That is all. I feel horrible. Oh, and my trigonometry exam has gone wrong. I think I lost 2-3 marks already. Out of 20, that is. Stupid, stupid mistakes. 'Tis all.

rio

Rio was the best. I downloaded it last night and it was worth it. I love how the birds were all squishy-looking. I don't really have much to say, besides: I am going to have a busy week. Sadly. My Chemistry homework is due tomorrow, and I really don't like the concept of moles. As well as that, my Trigonometry exam is tomorrow, and I have yet to study for it. I feel like crawling into my bed and sinking into it.

Goodbye for now.

piano lessons

My teacher's taking a 3 week holiday to go to England. She's such a lovely woman! I'll have to practise a lot before I return to her lessons. Right now, I'll just finish off tutor homework before doing Chemistry homework. There is so much to do. I haven't even made it to Volume Two for Emma (by Jane Austen) yet.

I don't really have much to say... So I'll go off and do some work now.

beginning

I remade my blog. Again. I was having second thoughts as to whether or not I would have the time to maintain this one. I'll notify people (or lack thereof) on my Live Journal some time. So here it is, and right now, I'm going to keep it. I'm sure of it.