addicted

To the internet?

Really, that's harsh.

I've been downloading and leaving my laptop on for that while I clean my room and take out my books again to better prepare for Friday, and this is what I get. Wow. LOL.

I can't even fathom the miscommunication that just happened there, and for you to dive right into what I'm going to say and that I'm feeling angry, that just made me LOL inside. Just a bit.

I think I've grown too apathetic to correct people when they misunderstand me. Most of the time they mistaken me for acting like a smart-arse.

I called ze boyfriend this morning, and he was too tired so he went back to bed.

I should get a move on in vacuuming my room. I still haven't done that. I also need to clean the sunroom, too... I still haven't done that.

And Steph, about you being a sloth (which you haven't been, as you've said and I believe), I think I'm acting like one HAHA... :(

drifting

I hope we don't, next year.

I'll always make time for you... But I hope that you'll make time for me too.

I've put in too much to lose someone like you.

and I still see it all in my head

I HAVE JUST FINISHED VACUUMING AND WIPING THE DUST OFF THE DASHBOARD OF MY WHITE CAR LOL.

I think the extreme spare time I have is driving me insane, because I'm beginning to see things that need to be cleaned, when I just cleaned them the day before. I actually haven't finished Catching Fire... Major sigh right here HAHA I want to move onto other books as well... But I can't leave a novel unfinished! :( It feels... unwholesome HAHA

I think I might pop by Officeworks some time this week to buy a few display folders to take to work and whatnot, and actually buy a proper pair of trainers to run. I think my sleeping patterns are becoming waaaay too distorted, and I hope to sleep earlier and look at least a bit healthier than I normally do. I have a movie date with ze boyfriend tonight, I think it's either The Longest Yard or Casino Royale. One of the two. By movie date I mean over msn. Yes, we are still limited to msn LOL

I pretty much see him weekly, so that's good. I miss my girls though :( It's been a long while since we've gone to Strathfield, even more so to see each other D: (L)

I've been maintaining my daily intake of water, so that's pretty good too. THERE'S SO MUCH TIME FOR ACTIVITIES. SERIOUSLY. LIKE I WAITED 13 YEARS FOR THIS (not really, only a few months because reality of an extended holiday doesn't hit you until mid-year 12) AND IT IS WORTH IT.

I'm going to clean my room, again, and take out what I need and what I don't.

Okay I really don't know what else to write HAHA So I'll be off now, ciao!

internet

Donovan Luong says (7:07 PM)
even downlading is fun
with you
AWBHAWBHAWHBAHS

Annie Huynh says (7:07 PM)
HAHAHA
NGAWWWW
(L)

Because competing on how fast your download is, is way too fun LMFAO

sentimentality at its finest

Soooooo. My first substantial blogpost ever since the conclusion of the HSC. I don't know what to say really.

In retrospect, I think I should've tried harder. A lot harder. But I suppose laziness and complacency got the better of me and I just cruised along throughout the year. The exams were a total nightmare - I don't want to live through those 3 weeks ever again. Thinking about going through it once more makes me shiver out of pure fright. I've learned a lot though, to which I wouldn't want to specify within this 1AM post about year 12.

English was one of the biggest (if not the biggest) milestones I have ever clawed my way to. It was dreadful, waking up every morning knowing that you could've studied all year, but chose to cram everything within the last few weeks. Worst decision, by far. Maths was difficult, but fairly doable. Business was abstract. I couldn't tell whether or not I completely failed or just passed. The latter would be nice. And Physics... I can't even comprehend the immensity of this subject when it came to the exam. I am so sure that I did really badly. I don't think my answers are right, my projectile motion question was ridiculous and I just... flunked it.

In any case, that being said and left behind, I did have good memories of the year. Which I don't want to list because of their abundance and how close they've been kept to my heart. Dono went to bed a few minutes ago. He has his interview tomorrow, so I hope he does super well. We're probably going out to eat on Thursday as a celebratory anniversary event or probably just to celebrate the fact that the interview is over and whatever will be, will be. Maybe.

Well, I've been fine. Thanks for asking. I do feel like everything's lifted off my shoulders, but I do have a stable job. Or an income stream. It's not much, but it's sufficient for me because I don't spend too much. I know I wouldn't be able to maintain many jobs at once, because of my desire for a transfer in degrees in the future, but you know, I'll still be looking. I actually don't have to fill up my time with work. I kind of busy myself with the chores at home, do some grocery shopping here and there. It's not much, but it gets me by. I don't know, I suppose being away from everything makes me feel a bit sad and cynical about everything that happens to me.

Sometimes I feel so... empty. And picky over everything. Then I realise that it's not them, it's me. By dwelling on something, all I've done is inflict further pain on myself and those around me. Maybe I'm too sensitive when it comes to certain phrases or words, but I suppose I do mask it well. Until I tell them how I feel, then everything goes haywire. Sometimes I wish for more, but I know it wouldn't happen unless something is mentioned... So yeah.

Anyway, it's 1:20AM. I can officially wish my mummy a happy birthday, but she's in bed sleeping everything off. I'll make her breakfast in bed. I signed out yesterday, and I do feel relatively free now. I no longer have to go back, and I feel somewhat relieved. I suppose it was the frustration of not being able to find my teachers, that killed my mood.

I planned to go DFO today, but you know, I didn't want to use too much petrol to just go there and browse. So... I chose to go grocery shopping with mum and yeah, it was quite eventful. My cousin and his boyfriend came over, we all had dinner, talked to the boyfriend (my boyfriend LOL), and now I'm blogging. I hope he's sleeping well.

I don't think he reads my blog any more LOL :-(

So... yeah. I really don't know what to say. I've been out with my girls once for post-hsc. Yogohouse was the best, and I would go there again. Over and over again. My girls and I had korean cuisine that day too, so it was extra spicy on my end of the table. It was so red, too.

And that is all. I'll blog more when the time comes... Really, unless my readers want to read about how I clean the bathroom, I'll dedicate a blog post on that.

Not.

Ciao my lovelies!

hazy

What if I went, and lost myself

Would you know how to find me?

If I forgot who I am,
Would you please remind me?

'Cause without you things go hazy

- Hazy by Rosi Golan ft. William Fitzsimmons

i'm tired

I really, really want to give up on life, sometimes.